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[brittangel777]

Sooooooooooooooo... yeah. Definitely the second thoughts about being back here. They have nothing to do with how much I like or dislike Taylor, its how much I like or dislike myself and the situations at Taylor. I mean, for pete's sake. How in the world did I bruise the INSIDE of my chest in intramurals? Enough that I wasn't breathing properly and

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[bluemermaid73]

try to remember there are other people out there with much larger problems then Dr.Loy thinking they're a slacker and bruises on one's chest wall (at least you have a reason to feel the way you do). Try thinking about the little kids in Africa that face starvation, the muslim women who are next to slaves, the americans wha are facing psycotic fundementalists who want to blow themselves up because they are brainwashed, even people here in the US who are fighting battles against cancer, and other debilitating desieses, and also try to remember that you are not the only depressed person out there 60% of the rest of the nation struggles with it too. That being said. You should have been in class yesterday Virgin Mary was up to her usual tactics.

[brittangel777]

This is good advice and I do thank you for it; however, it unfortunately doesn't work that way with me. I am well aware of the travesties in the world and well aware of how blessed and comparatively trouble-free I am. This is not necessarily a comforting thought so much as a "what the hell do you have to complain about" thought that morphs into feelings of frustration and anger at myself for feeling a way that I ought not to. This is part of why I want my life to count, you know? I'm blessed and I don't feel it (yes, I know, the heart is deceitful above all things) and there are TONS of people who probably wouldn't mind feeling the way I do if only they had medications and money at their disposal to try and fix it. I know I'm wrong, but its been 8 years and I still don't know how to rein in my thoughts.

And what, pray tell, was the Virgin Mary up to? I'm sad I missed it :-P

[bluemermaid73]

As long as you never expect pity from me then we should be fine, I only have one sympathetic bone in my body and it is small, so I save it for people who really really need it.

I can't remember what the discussion she started was about, but it deffently had nothing to do with french, and it lasted for at least 15 min.