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today was AWSOME i loved it i had so much fun i couldnt stop laughing non-stop :D .............i yelled at advanced kid today about the thing he said and he said he was being sarcastic and i was like if you fucking touch me i sware to god i'll beat the fuck outta you(than jake was like she wouldnt have to beat you up cause id be beating you)and steph was like i'll beat you if you touch her and i had also told mike about it cause i was so annoyed with it all and he was like he better not fuckin touch you or i'll kill him....i hate that kid he dont know when to lay the fuck off not one person in the class other than whitey likes him..any ways than me and steph and than clayton came too blocked him from getting by cause he was being an ass and he said im an idiot and i was like excuse me you fucking faggot am i the only one blocking you..NO theres steph AND clayton not just me so shut the fuck up .
...i read jills entry and i cant believe how bad it all is...its not a fun thing to go through i know this because of going through the same thing with my dad except its his heart and it cant be fixed...just makes thing hard and than you start slippin in school cause your so scared and worried that your going to lose them..its just one big thing that hangs over your head 24/7 and you can never get it to go away...its like living in hell i guess you can explain it that way...like lately dad has been haveing A LOT of pains in his chest which only makes things soo much worse...cause it shows that his heart is getting worse..like he was in the kitchen sitting at the table with mom and all the sudden he put his head on the table and mom thought he passed out from a heart attack and than she was like ..david.. and he was like get me water hurry up my chest hurts so bad.. and she did and so on..so its scarey and i feel like im making things worse with his heart from argueing with him so much lately but i've been bothered by soooooo much and than he'll be and ass or do something to piss me off adn i start mouthin and he yells at me and i yell back cause im not like david and lisa i cant just sit there and let him or anyone else bitch at me for shit that has nothing to do with me..like david and lisa and my mom have all told me to just let him bitch adn ignore it and i was like no i cant do that i cant stand someone yelling at me..and they were like i know you have Always been like that too...so meh w/e but like i said i feel like im making him worse i feel guilty for it but if he'd stop bitching at me for shit that has NOTHING to do with me than i wouldnt yell back..its just hard and i know what jill is going through whether any believes that or not..cause its true other than i know for sure that my dad is dying and that he cant be helped..theres atleast help for her sister more than likely..and thats pretty much the only difference..but anyways this is a lot to write so im gonna post this and than post later maybe love you <3
...i read jills entry and i cant believe how bad it all is...its not a fun thing to go through i know this because of going through the same thing with my dad except its his heart and it cant be fixed...just makes thing hard and than you start slippin in school cause your so scared and worried that your going to lose them..its just one big thing that hangs over your head 24/7 and you can never get it to go away...its like living in hell i guess you can explain it that way...like lately dad has been haveing A LOT of pains in his chest which only makes things soo much worse...cause it shows that his heart is getting worse..like he was in the kitchen sitting at the table with mom and all the sudden he put his head on the table and mom thought he passed out from a heart attack and than she was like ..david.. and he was like get me water hurry up my chest hurts so bad.. and she did and so on..so its scarey and i feel like im making things worse with his heart from argueing with him so much lately but i've been bothered by soooooo much and than he'll be and ass or do something to piss me off adn i start mouthin and he yells at me and i yell back cause im not like david and lisa i cant just sit there and let him or anyone else bitch at me for shit that has nothing to do with me..like david and lisa and my mom have all told me to just let him bitch adn ignore it and i was like no i cant do that i cant stand someone yelling at me..and they were like i know you have Always been like that too...so meh w/e but like i said i feel like im making him worse i feel guilty for it but if he'd stop bitching at me for shit that has NOTHING to do with me than i wouldnt yell back..its just hard and i know what jill is going through whether any believes that or not..cause its true other than i know for sure that my dad is dying and that he cant be helped..theres atleast help for her sister more than likely..and thats pretty much the only difference..but anyways this is a lot to write so im gonna post this and than post later maybe love you <3