..Im sorry.. *
Well lets just put it this way! This is the worst day of my life. I don't really want to talk about it but it seems that i can't turn to any of my friends because all of them are not even on the same page as me.
This week at school hasn't been any different. * it's just hectic and i hate it. =(
Today--*
Got home at about 4:20 today and i was in the greatest mood ever. i mean my day was fine. but i got this one little phone call that i really couldn't wait to get. guess who?? yeah you guessed it .. William Lee Kennedy. you would think that i would be happy to talk to him. and i was don't get me wrong but he just hurt my feelings so bad.. i hate it cause he thinks that i dont' have feelings but when it comes to me hurting his. GOD FORBID! =( I love him to death but i can't stand when he puts me in this position. We were talkin today and he was just telling me that he would be in May 24 cause his dad is riding to Norfolk to get him and bring him back home. i got so excited but he was like ... well do you want me to come up there when i get home?? I told him yeah. even tho i couldn't go out w/ him cause it would be 10 or 11 before he got home so i told him he could come up here and see me for about an hour before i went to bed for school the next day. he was like ok. everything was fine until he said what's wrong. i said nothin. he said whatever. i was like what the hell. he said that i was too bitchy with him at times and he couldn't take it anymore. i just about lost my cool and said forget you but i couldn't because he is like thousands of miles away and i think he's just mad cause he can't be here at home. i don't care what you say but you don't need a guy to make you happy. i mean me and will don't get to talk but like 2 or 3 times a week. please do not think that you need someone to make you happy. but anyways... he really hurt my feelings and i think that im just stupid and i take his pity that he puts on me. you know im really sick of letting ppl take me for some kind of little game cause im not playin it. too bad.
It really sucks that i can't even talk to my friends about things anymore cause i guess i just can't trust them. im sorry to say that but i hate this and i hate the way ppl treat me.
For all of you all that know me just remember im not takin any kind of shit that you try to give me. i mean if i like you then ok. but if you try to talk about me behind my f'n back then god you really must not be big enough to tell me to my face. i hate the way ppl act at school. and i hate the way my family acts towards me at times. im not taking it out on anyone but you just need to know how i feel.
Ever since this deal with will went on tonight i finally opened my big brown eyes and looked the hell around to realize that you can't trust anyone these days. and you don't fall in love 4 months into a relationship*
I love you all but just remember that Im changin*--
Britt.*