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as of late i have not written anything. i had nothing that i wanted to say for the world to here, but now in the serenity of my own, i do.
In the bible when God sends moses to set his people free, moses asks God what he should tell the people when they ask what the God of thier fathers' name is, and God replied "I Am Who I Am." in the simplicity of this phrase the most complex description has been made.
i am who i am, nothing more and nothing less.
at this very present moment in time i am happy, happier than i have ever been. my world has been completely turned upside down and i love it. and though my environment has changed i can safely say i have not. my everyday stress is relieved in a smile followed by a hug and a kiss and the world is alright. i can go on breathing with a normal heart rate. i am determined, determined to make something of myself, to succeed and prove those who didn't think i could do it wrong. and with my head held high i walk on praying God will pick me up and brush me off when i stumble. i am scared, scared out of my mind that this is the one time that i let my heart go and i get it back with the biggest whole in it. i am afraid that i am going to get screwed over royally and not know how to recover, except with time. i am growing up, and i like it for the most part. i am seeing the simplicity in everyday life, by taking the time to see it. for a contradiction i am seeing the complex too...just taking the time to break it all down. i am understanding, understanding more of the things that i had more or less thought unfair and imperfect. i have come to be able to think before i speak. i am innocent. and so very proud of it. i prefer to think of it as the biggest part of my charm, should i have any. i am forgetting and forgiving all rolled into one. i am forgetting the transgressions i have suffered and moving on and forgiving those that have hurt me and hoping for forgiveness in return from those i have hurt. i am bettering myself, slowly but surely.
In the bible when God sends moses to set his people free, moses asks God what he should tell the people when they ask what the God of thier fathers' name is, and God replied "I Am Who I Am." in the simplicity of this phrase the most complex description has been made.
i am who i am, nothing more and nothing less.
at this very present moment in time i am happy, happier than i have ever been. my world has been completely turned upside down and i love it. and though my environment has changed i can safely say i have not. my everyday stress is relieved in a smile followed by a hug and a kiss and the world is alright. i can go on breathing with a normal heart rate. i am determined, determined to make something of myself, to succeed and prove those who didn't think i could do it wrong. and with my head held high i walk on praying God will pick me up and brush me off when i stumble. i am scared, scared out of my mind that this is the one time that i let my heart go and i get it back with the biggest whole in it. i am afraid that i am going to get screwed over royally and not know how to recover, except with time. i am growing up, and i like it for the most part. i am seeing the simplicity in everyday life, by taking the time to see it. for a contradiction i am seeing the complex too...just taking the time to break it all down. i am understanding, understanding more of the things that i had more or less thought unfair and imperfect. i have come to be able to think before i speak. i am innocent. and so very proud of it. i prefer to think of it as the biggest part of my charm, should i have any. i am forgetting and forgiving all rolled into one. i am forgetting the transgressions i have suffered and moving on and forgiving those that have hurt me and hoping for forgiveness in return from those i have hurt. i am bettering myself, slowly but surely.