I want a lover I don't have to love

[britannicamoore]

It's sort of like: even if I had sex with a random person I wouldn't be able to do away with that attachment.
I'd still care about them because i'm giving them my body and vise versa. So i'd end up getting messed up even more because they'd leave. Drinking and getting high make me feel something because i've been hurt to the point where I just need to feel something. Anything.

So if I end up sleeping with a random person I'll feel good and bad. I need that right now. Because I don't feel anything. And everyone needs to feel.

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said he'd meet me here but I'm not sure
I got the money if you got the time
He said, "It feels good"
I said, "I'll give it a try"

Then my mind went dark
We both forgot where your car was parked
Let's just take the train
I'll meet up with the band in the morning

Bad actors with bad habits
Some sad singers
They just play tragic
And the phone's ringing
And the band's leaving
Let's just keep touching
Let's just keep keep, keep singing

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind

But you, but you
You write such pretty words
But life's no storybook
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do
Then hurt me
Hurt me(x10)