rest in peace joe, i love you so much.
Sunday 12/3- um didn't really do anything. i had work, i worked with cara & my sister and marissa was there and erika came to visit and thenn erika came back to my house and we ate food and then she left and i didnt do anything.
Tuesday 12/5- after school i hung out with heather, then we went to myles's house but then we left to go meet erika at the dienr and myles and adam were gonna come but myles had to drive someone ot the dentist or something. thenn after the diner i dropped heather off at home and stayed there for a bit then i went to the boys swim meet and then i elft and went home.
Wednesday 12/6- ummm came home & got johnny off the bus. erika was here but she left at like 4:30 after that i went to wal mart to meet rosann and everyone else that was there & we went shopping to get stuff to bring to the homeless shelter then after that me julianna and this girl haina went back to rosanns to wrap gifts but i had to leave at 8:30 then i came home and watched one tree hill and then i went to bed.
Thursday 12/7- umm after school i came home and did nothing & then i got johnny off the bus. then at like 4 erika & brian came overr. then at like 5 susann got johhny and then we all left & i stopped at rosanns to pick up some stuff thennn i met brain & erika at the diner but i only stayed for a little b/c i had to go babysit the triplets thenn i came hoem at like 10 and went to bed.
then nothing really exciting happened until the 15thh
Friday 12/15- school. after school i got johnny off the bus then when he left i went to the commons to return my jacket to areopostale then i went ghome to get ready to go out to dinner with brian. then we left and went to la vera cuchina, it was a lot of fun and the food was so good, then my dad picked us up and we went to get erika b/c we were going to meet my mom at rocking horse ranch, then we dropped off brian and then we were on our wayy. lmao. the car ride there was fun it was me my dad erika and kaseyy thenn we got there at like midnight and said hello to kelly kelly and julie and then just went to sleep.
Saturday 12/16- umm woke up and at breakfast. saw kerianne kim and my aunt maribeth then we went horseback riding all day, until lunch after lunch we went back to the room and took naps. then after that we went riding again then me kerianne and erika didnt want to ride anymore so eirka went to take a shower and me and kerianne went to go on the paddle boats but we couldnt because it was closed or something soo we just played mini golf. then we went to the "coketail" party and ate food haha then we just hung out and then we ate dinner after dinner we went to play bingo. after that we went back to the room and made some drinks lmao. then me and erika went to the camp fire and then when that was done we went back to the room and i went down to watch this pyscic guy but i was bymyself becasue no one lese wanted to go but sucks for them because it was really cool. thenn umm i was on the phone with myles then brian then my phone died so i charged it, so then i was outside and it was freezing but i was on the phone with corey but then it died so i just went to sleep.
Sunday 12/17- um woke up early and ate breakfast then we went riding on almost everyride. then we ate lunch and went riding more. than at like 5 we left after we watched all the horses leave, it as really cool. hmm then we dropped off erika at home and then kim. then we got pizza and then we went home. while we were eating my mom sat down me and kerianne, wulnd't let us listen to the messages and wouldn't let me on the computer. so she told us that she had to tell us something. then she told us. my cousin, joey "shakes" edwards, had passed away saturday morning. all i did was cry the rest of the night. i talked to anthony on the phone and he helped me a little bit and i talked to brian too but i think i scared everyone a little bit because i couldn;t really talk i was just hysterical. daniel came over and we creid together.
the rest of the week was just kind of a blurr.
monday 12/18-i went to school but broke down 3rd period and went home and cried and cried and cried. then i slept and and then i took a shower and at like 2:00 i went to pick up brian, then we went to the palisades to go christmas shopping but i didnt get anything because i really wasnt in the mood but the brian bought me ice cream and i was happy, for a little and then i came home and went to my aunt patty and uncle joe's with my family and then some of my other cousins were there hm then i came home and cried myself to sleep.
tuesday 12/19- went to school, i was good, i only cried 12th period then after school i went to rosanns to tell her what had happened becasue she called me the day before and knew i wasn't okay. then joey came home and i told him, then i left and came hoem and took a shower and stuff, then joey came to get me and we went to see the pursuit of happyness umm it was long and it wasn;t that good, but what are you gonna do? then he dropped me off at home and i went to sleep.
wednesday 12/20- went to school. came home and did nothing. then went to the first wake from 7-9 which was just for family and that was so hard, seeing joe, and everyone in my family just breaking down, its not fair. then i came home and cried. and went to sleep.
thursday 12/21- went to school. but then i left after 3rd period, its just too hard, letting everyone see me like that. so i came home and then joey came over and stayed with me liek all day until i had to go to wake #2. there was so many people from my school there, like teachers and stuff. crone came. and my history teacher, mr. philiponne, and a lot of other people. then i came home to eat, but then we left b/c there was food at the funeral home for us. so then we went back and wake #3, where all these people from his college were there and just SO many people, it's unbelievable, he touched so many lives. then a bunch of people from his college came back here and stayed the night, i went to bed around 11.
friday 12/22- worst day of my life. i was crying liek as soon as i got up, then i wrote joey a letter becasue there are some things i never said to him. then my mom and dad left to go to the service becasue famiyl had to be there earlier then everyone else. then me and kasey left. then we got there and i was i just couldn't handle it. like oh boy, i was crying, then the priest got up to like say the things for the service and i was fine. but then this guy came in to play the bag pipes and i totally broke down. then i had to go up and say my last goodbye, and i told joey that i would miss him and that i love him and then i just cried so much. and then we waited for my aunt patty uncle joe and patty to come out and then we left and everyone came bakc to our house but all i did really was sleep then i elft and went to rosanns because i didnt want to be home. then i just ended up sleeping there.
saturday 12/23- woke up and had to go rings bells, i was there with alyssa & justin but then justin left, then me and alyssa went to get food, and then i left at like 2, and then that night joey came over and then we went to danas and then at like 11:30 i came back and went to sleep.
Sunday 12/24- umm got up and went to brians house for a little bit to exchange gifts and stuff. thenn i came home and went next door for a little, then we went to church. gay, then we went out to eat at cosimos and then we came home and i went to bed pretty early.
Monday 12/25- merry christmas. got up and opened gifts. then just watched tv, then we went to my aunt barbras for dinner and that was fun, and thenn we went to my aunt margret & aunt ellies for dessert, and everyone was there and we took like a million pictures. lmao thenn we left and patty came home with us and me and her and corey went bowling and that was so much funn thenn we got home at like 1:30 and started watching happy feet but then we went to bed.
Tuesday 12/26- umm got up and did nothing most of the day, then i went to pick up heather and brian and they came to my house and merry came too. then around 4:45 merrry left b/c she had work, then me and brian and heather left and i dropped off heather at work and then i dropped off brian at home then i went back home. then natasha came over and we went to dans to meet her new boyfriend. then me & tasha left to go meet joey and then we went to the movies to see We Are Marshall and met these two kids ncik and steeve there, then we went to the diner but my mom was bitching so i had to go home and then i got yelled at because it was 1:42 and then i just went to bed.
Wednesday 12/27- umm got up then around 11:30 joey came to pick me up and thenn we went snowboarding at windham and it was liek a blizzard there and it was so exciting because i got to see real snow, lmao. then um i fell a lot. and we left at like 7:30ishh i think. then we went back to his house and my mom came and picked me up at like 9:30 and then i came hoem and passed outt
Thursday 12/28- woke up early and took a shower then i went to pick up natasha and alyssa and we went to rosanns and met up with jen julianna joey & debbie and then we all left to go to the city, we stopped at this store on the way called below 5 and it was really cool. lol then we got to the city and went to this restuarant and ate really good food. and then we left and saw the naked cowboy! lmao! then we went to see the tree and all that and then umm we went to all these stores and then we got hotdogs and left around 7ish. hmm then i came home and kellyann was here. yay =] and then we decided we wanted to make milk shakes but didnt have and choclate syrup so we went to susanns to borrow some but didnt end up leaving until like 12:30 b/c daniel and cody were at my house then we went in my basement and started watching barnyard but then i fell asleep and then umm i woke up and told them they could stay as long as they wanted but i was going to bed. lmao.
Friday 12/29- brian's birthday! yay woke up and then me and kell went to get bacon egg and cheeses from bagels& deli and then we got ready to go to brians and then we went but then we left at like 6:30 because we had to go to the borwns for family game night, which just turned into a huge beer pong tournament but then i talk to brian and anthony on the phone. and then umm drank more and then me kell & kasey just ended up sleeping there and we went to bed around 3ish.
Saturday 12/20- woke up and ate breakfast then left at like 11:30 and went home and then umm my family and kell went to my aunt margies house and that was funn and then we left and came home and im pretty sure we didnt do anything that night but we went to bed at like 2 and we watched this movie crash, it was SO good.
Sunday 12/31- umm got up and then we did nothing and then me & kell went out to eat with brian and then after that we went to rosanns and thenn we left there around 5:45 and went home to eat, then we went to pats house with brian, sam, & mike and brians sister katie and we umm played manhunt and ate food, it was fun then we watched the ball drop and everyone said happy new year then we made phone cals and all that shitttt thenn my mom picked us up at like 2:30 and then we went home and went to sleep.
Monday 1/1/07- woke up at like 1, then kell left an i did homework and went to bed really late.
then tuesday it was back to school again. didn;t really do anything at all that week, um thursday i hung out with joey natasha and dana a little bit but thats all.
Friday 1/5- umm right after school i went to pick up joey and then we went to destinta to see freedom writers, SO GOOD i loved it and i was with joe so obv it was fun =] haha then i dropped him off and then i went to hang out with erika and then i was with mike shea for a little bit and then at 7 i had to babysitt. then i came home and did nothing. lol
Saturday 1/6- got up super early at like 5:30, then i left with kasey and my dad to go pick up my cousin brian, then we met my uncle joe, my uncle bob and patty and then we left to go to joes college to clean out all his stuff. that was really hard. we were at his college until like 1:30ish i think then we left and we all went to my aunt pattys to bring all his stuff from his college to his real room at home. then we ate dinner and stuff and then we left and i came home and just went to sleep.
then monday school again and thenn umm thats it. lmao ohh except wednesday
Wednesday 12/10- came home after school and then i went to hang out with ryan =] yayy! lmao i went to his house and saw GREG! i lvoe greg. haha then me and ryan left and went to the bank, then we went to bjs so ryan could ook at hpones, then we went to stop & shop to buy groceries. lmao then we wne to wendys to get food and then i left and had to go to teen mission. then i came home and watched one tree hill and went to bed.
Friday 1/12- um school and then i had to get johnny off the bus and then we made brownies and then mike and kev and nick and some people came over and that was fun.. and then um i had to babysit until about 9, and then i went to danas and then we left to go pick up natasha and joey and then we left to go to the mall to see Alpha Dog, lmao there was so many people in the theater and we had to sit on the floor but it was well worht it, omg the movie was SO freakking good then after that we went to the diner and i saw ANTHONY RHEINER yay!! i <3 him. lmao then we left and dropped off joey then tasha and then mee =] and then i came home and went to sleep.
Saturday 1/13- umm did nothing all day and then at 2:30 i went to tutor britt and then at like 5:15 erika came to pick me up and we went to stop and shop so she could use the coin star and then i saw coreyyy<3 lol then we left and went to erikas and got ready for caras sweet 16 then we went and it was a lot of fun, mostly i hung out with taylor erika jordan joe justin and the swimmers<333 and then she had a chocolate fountain, coolest shit in the whole world and thenn umm taylors mom brought me home and i stayed up liek really late talking lol.
Sunday 1/14- umm got up at like 10:30 then i had to babysit at 11:30 and then at like 5 i left and then umm i came home but left again and i went to the grazianos to drop off happy feet and i was talking to maddy and louie for a bit then i left to go to blockbuster but they didnt have the movie i wanted so then i went to the dunns house becasue i really wanted to watch a walk to remember and i know they have it, but kait wasnt there but i was talking to her mom for liek an hour just about things and about joey and everything. and then at like 6:30 corey called me and told me he was on his way to my house so i left then um corey came over and we ordered pizza and then kasey came home and we got into a fight so she left then me and corey left and went to erikas with julie tania and sammi then at like 10:20 we left and he dropped me off at home and then i was on the computer then i watched a walk to remember and talked to brian and then after it was over i talked to corey until like 3:30 and then i went to bed.
Monday 1/15- um got up at like 11ish then im going out to lunch with brian erika and alexa and thenn im coming home and doing homework.
okay, so tomorrow it will be januray 16th, 2007, exactly a month after joeys death and i miss him more and more everyday. its not fair that he had to die, i really miss him so much, he was the best person in this whole family, it's not fair that he won't be here when i graduate or turn 21 or have kids or get married. i seriously loved joe with all my heart and i know he loved me becasue he loved eveyone that he knew, especially his family, he would always tell me family coms first. itsa not fair that i didnt hear my phone ring when joey called me the morning he died. i really miss him so much. like why joe, its not fair that i will never know the answer. i love you joey and i will miss you everyday, joe when you died a part of me died too, i need you to help me through this, you need to help all of us through this, i love you and i miss you.
Tuesday 12/5- after school i hung out with heather, then we went to myles's house but then we left to go meet erika at the dienr and myles and adam were gonna come but myles had to drive someone ot the dentist or something. thenn after the diner i dropped heather off at home and stayed there for a bit then i went to the boys swim meet and then i elft and went home.
Wednesday 12/6- ummm came home & got johnny off the bus. erika was here but she left at like 4:30 after that i went to wal mart to meet rosann and everyone else that was there & we went shopping to get stuff to bring to the homeless shelter then after that me julianna and this girl haina went back to rosanns to wrap gifts but i had to leave at 8:30 then i came home and watched one tree hill and then i went to bed.
Thursday 12/7- umm after school i came home and did nothing & then i got johnny off the bus. then at like 4 erika & brian came overr. then at like 5 susann got johhny and then we all left & i stopped at rosanns to pick up some stuff thennn i met brain & erika at the diner but i only stayed for a little b/c i had to go babysit the triplets thenn i came hoem at like 10 and went to bed.
then nothing really exciting happened until the 15thh
Friday 12/15- school. after school i got johnny off the bus then when he left i went to the commons to return my jacket to areopostale then i went ghome to get ready to go out to dinner with brian. then we left and went to la vera cuchina, it was a lot of fun and the food was so good, then my dad picked us up and we went to get erika b/c we were going to meet my mom at rocking horse ranch, then we dropped off brian and then we were on our wayy. lmao. the car ride there was fun it was me my dad erika and kaseyy thenn we got there at like midnight and said hello to kelly kelly and julie and then just went to sleep.
Saturday 12/16- umm woke up and at breakfast. saw kerianne kim and my aunt maribeth then we went horseback riding all day, until lunch after lunch we went back to the room and took naps. then after that we went riding again then me kerianne and erika didnt want to ride anymore so eirka went to take a shower and me and kerianne went to go on the paddle boats but we couldnt because it was closed or something soo we just played mini golf. then we went to the "coketail" party and ate food haha then we just hung out and then we ate dinner after dinner we went to play bingo. after that we went back to the room and made some drinks lmao. then me and erika went to the camp fire and then when that was done we went back to the room and i went down to watch this pyscic guy but i was bymyself becasue no one lese wanted to go but sucks for them because it was really cool. thenn umm i was on the phone with myles then brian then my phone died so i charged it, so then i was outside and it was freezing but i was on the phone with corey but then it died so i just went to sleep.
Sunday 12/17- um woke up early and ate breakfast then we went riding on almost everyride. then we ate lunch and went riding more. than at like 5 we left after we watched all the horses leave, it as really cool. hmm then we dropped off erika at home and then kim. then we got pizza and then we went home. while we were eating my mom sat down me and kerianne, wulnd't let us listen to the messages and wouldn't let me on the computer. so she told us that she had to tell us something. then she told us. my cousin, joey "shakes" edwards, had passed away saturday morning. all i did was cry the rest of the night. i talked to anthony on the phone and he helped me a little bit and i talked to brian too but i think i scared everyone a little bit because i couldn;t really talk i was just hysterical. daniel came over and we creid together.
the rest of the week was just kind of a blurr.
monday 12/18-i went to school but broke down 3rd period and went home and cried and cried and cried. then i slept and and then i took a shower and at like 2:00 i went to pick up brian, then we went to the palisades to go christmas shopping but i didnt get anything because i really wasnt in the mood but the brian bought me ice cream and i was happy, for a little and then i came home and went to my aunt patty and uncle joe's with my family and then some of my other cousins were there hm then i came home and cried myself to sleep.
tuesday 12/19- went to school, i was good, i only cried 12th period then after school i went to rosanns to tell her what had happened becasue she called me the day before and knew i wasn't okay. then joey came home and i told him, then i left and came hoem and took a shower and stuff, then joey came to get me and we went to see the pursuit of happyness umm it was long and it wasn;t that good, but what are you gonna do? then he dropped me off at home and i went to sleep.
wednesday 12/20- went to school. came home and did nothing. then went to the first wake from 7-9 which was just for family and that was so hard, seeing joe, and everyone in my family just breaking down, its not fair. then i came home and cried. and went to sleep.
thursday 12/21- went to school. but then i left after 3rd period, its just too hard, letting everyone see me like that. so i came home and then joey came over and stayed with me liek all day until i had to go to wake #2. there was so many people from my school there, like teachers and stuff. crone came. and my history teacher, mr. philiponne, and a lot of other people. then i came home to eat, but then we left b/c there was food at the funeral home for us. so then we went back and wake #3, where all these people from his college were there and just SO many people, it's unbelievable, he touched so many lives. then a bunch of people from his college came back here and stayed the night, i went to bed around 11.
friday 12/22- worst day of my life. i was crying liek as soon as i got up, then i wrote joey a letter becasue there are some things i never said to him. then my mom and dad left to go to the service becasue famiyl had to be there earlier then everyone else. then me and kasey left. then we got there and i was i just couldn't handle it. like oh boy, i was crying, then the priest got up to like say the things for the service and i was fine. but then this guy came in to play the bag pipes and i totally broke down. then i had to go up and say my last goodbye, and i told joey that i would miss him and that i love him and then i just cried so much. and then we waited for my aunt patty uncle joe and patty to come out and then we left and everyone came bakc to our house but all i did really was sleep then i elft and went to rosanns because i didnt want to be home. then i just ended up sleeping there.
saturday 12/23- woke up and had to go rings bells, i was there with alyssa & justin but then justin left, then me and alyssa went to get food, and then i left at like 2, and then that night joey came over and then we went to danas and then at like 11:30 i came back and went to sleep.
Sunday 12/24- umm got up and went to brians house for a little bit to exchange gifts and stuff. thenn i came home and went next door for a little, then we went to church. gay, then we went out to eat at cosimos and then we came home and i went to bed pretty early.
Monday 12/25- merry christmas. got up and opened gifts. then just watched tv, then we went to my aunt barbras for dinner and that was fun, and thenn we went to my aunt margret & aunt ellies for dessert, and everyone was there and we took like a million pictures. lmao thenn we left and patty came home with us and me and her and corey went bowling and that was so much funn thenn we got home at like 1:30 and started watching happy feet but then we went to bed.
Tuesday 12/26- umm got up and did nothing most of the day, then i went to pick up heather and brian and they came to my house and merry came too. then around 4:45 merrry left b/c she had work, then me and brian and heather left and i dropped off heather at work and then i dropped off brian at home then i went back home. then natasha came over and we went to dans to meet her new boyfriend. then me & tasha left to go meet joey and then we went to the movies to see We Are Marshall and met these two kids ncik and steeve there, then we went to the diner but my mom was bitching so i had to go home and then i got yelled at because it was 1:42 and then i just went to bed.
Wednesday 12/27- umm got up then around 11:30 joey came to pick me up and thenn we went snowboarding at windham and it was liek a blizzard there and it was so exciting because i got to see real snow, lmao. then um i fell a lot. and we left at like 7:30ishh i think. then we went back to his house and my mom came and picked me up at like 9:30 and then i came hoem and passed outt
Thursday 12/28- woke up early and took a shower then i went to pick up natasha and alyssa and we went to rosanns and met up with jen julianna joey & debbie and then we all left to go to the city, we stopped at this store on the way called below 5 and it was really cool. lol then we got to the city and went to this restuarant and ate really good food. and then we left and saw the naked cowboy! lmao! then we went to see the tree and all that and then umm we went to all these stores and then we got hotdogs and left around 7ish. hmm then i came home and kellyann was here. yay =] and then we decided we wanted to make milk shakes but didnt have and choclate syrup so we went to susanns to borrow some but didnt end up leaving until like 12:30 b/c daniel and cody were at my house then we went in my basement and started watching barnyard but then i fell asleep and then umm i woke up and told them they could stay as long as they wanted but i was going to bed. lmao.
Friday 12/29- brian's birthday! yay woke up and then me and kell went to get bacon egg and cheeses from bagels& deli and then we got ready to go to brians and then we went but then we left at like 6:30 because we had to go to the borwns for family game night, which just turned into a huge beer pong tournament but then i talk to brian and anthony on the phone. and then umm drank more and then me kell & kasey just ended up sleeping there and we went to bed around 3ish.
Saturday 12/20- woke up and ate breakfast then left at like 11:30 and went home and then umm my family and kell went to my aunt margies house and that was funn and then we left and came home and im pretty sure we didnt do anything that night but we went to bed at like 2 and we watched this movie crash, it was SO good.
Sunday 12/31- umm got up and then we did nothing and then me & kell went out to eat with brian and then after that we went to rosanns and thenn we left there around 5:45 and went home to eat, then we went to pats house with brian, sam, & mike and brians sister katie and we umm played manhunt and ate food, it was fun then we watched the ball drop and everyone said happy new year then we made phone cals and all that shitttt thenn my mom picked us up at like 2:30 and then we went home and went to sleep.
Monday 1/1/07- woke up at like 1, then kell left an i did homework and went to bed really late.
then tuesday it was back to school again. didn;t really do anything at all that week, um thursday i hung out with joey natasha and dana a little bit but thats all.
Friday 1/5- umm right after school i went to pick up joey and then we went to destinta to see freedom writers, SO GOOD i loved it and i was with joe so obv it was fun =] haha then i dropped him off and then i went to hang out with erika and then i was with mike shea for a little bit and then at 7 i had to babysitt. then i came home and did nothing. lol
Saturday 1/6- got up super early at like 5:30, then i left with kasey and my dad to go pick up my cousin brian, then we met my uncle joe, my uncle bob and patty and then we left to go to joes college to clean out all his stuff. that was really hard. we were at his college until like 1:30ish i think then we left and we all went to my aunt pattys to bring all his stuff from his college to his real room at home. then we ate dinner and stuff and then we left and i came home and just went to sleep.
then monday school again and thenn umm thats it. lmao ohh except wednesday
Wednesday 12/10- came home after school and then i went to hang out with ryan =] yayy! lmao i went to his house and saw GREG! i lvoe greg. haha then me and ryan left and went to the bank, then we went to bjs so ryan could ook at hpones, then we went to stop & shop to buy groceries. lmao then we wne to wendys to get food and then i left and had to go to teen mission. then i came home and watched one tree hill and went to bed.
Friday 1/12- um school and then i had to get johnny off the bus and then we made brownies and then mike and kev and nick and some people came over and that was fun.. and then um i had to babysit until about 9, and then i went to danas and then we left to go pick up natasha and joey and then we left to go to the mall to see Alpha Dog, lmao there was so many people in the theater and we had to sit on the floor but it was well worht it, omg the movie was SO freakking good then after that we went to the diner and i saw ANTHONY RHEINER yay!! i <3 him. lmao then we left and dropped off joey then tasha and then mee =] and then i came home and went to sleep.
Saturday 1/13- umm did nothing all day and then at 2:30 i went to tutor britt and then at like 5:15 erika came to pick me up and we went to stop and shop so she could use the coin star and then i saw coreyyy<3 lol then we left and went to erikas and got ready for caras sweet 16 then we went and it was a lot of fun, mostly i hung out with taylor erika jordan joe justin and the swimmers<333 and then she had a chocolate fountain, coolest shit in the whole world and thenn umm taylors mom brought me home and i stayed up liek really late talking lol.
Sunday 1/14- umm got up at like 10:30 then i had to babysit at 11:30 and then at like 5 i left and then umm i came home but left again and i went to the grazianos to drop off happy feet and i was talking to maddy and louie for a bit then i left to go to blockbuster but they didnt have the movie i wanted so then i went to the dunns house becasue i really wanted to watch a walk to remember and i know they have it, but kait wasnt there but i was talking to her mom for liek an hour just about things and about joey and everything. and then at like 6:30 corey called me and told me he was on his way to my house so i left then um corey came over and we ordered pizza and then kasey came home and we got into a fight so she left then me and corey left and went to erikas with julie tania and sammi then at like 10:20 we left and he dropped me off at home and then i was on the computer then i watched a walk to remember and talked to brian and then after it was over i talked to corey until like 3:30 and then i went to bed.
Monday 1/15- um got up at like 11ish then im going out to lunch with brian erika and alexa and thenn im coming home and doing homework.
okay, so tomorrow it will be januray 16th, 2007, exactly a month after joeys death and i miss him more and more everyday. its not fair that he had to die, i really miss him so much, he was the best person in this whole family, it's not fair that he won't be here when i graduate or turn 21 or have kids or get married. i seriously loved joe with all my heart and i know he loved me becasue he loved eveyone that he knew, especially his family, he would always tell me family coms first. itsa not fair that i didnt hear my phone ring when joey called me the morning he died. i really miss him so much. like why joe, its not fair that i will never know the answer. i love you joey and i will miss you everyday, joe when you died a part of me died too, i need you to help me through this, you need to help all of us through this, i love you and i miss you.