Overloaded system goes boom!
I keep having to check what I feel with other people. On day three of the training week I just got through (which was so amazingly awesome) I checked with others to ask if they were feeling drained like I was. Turns out everybody I asked has a bit of a meltdown on night two. So I'm not that weird.
Looking at my list of things in the pipeline or happening right now... it's a bit much and I don't really understand why I feel like I should be able to handle it all with a smile.
- A kitty I still don't know yet causing problems at night for two weeks.
- Same kitty switching it up to yelling night and day, only stopping for a little sleep.
- Going for the fifth try to get pregnant.
- Having 4 letdowns including two that really knocked me down.
- SOmetimes driving to the clinic three times a week.
- Training for a week full time having to use skills I haven't used in about 15 years
- Wanting to score 10/10 to show my new bosses and myself I am worht the risk they took.
- Starting a new job and leaving what has been my safeplace for 12 years.
- Facing the fact that my parents are in fact not aging but elderly.
- Not sleeping.
- Not being able to excersise
- Gaining weight when I should be loosing to enhance chances of pregnancy.
- Telling myself not to stress out.
If somebody else showed me this list I would NOT be yelling at them to get their f*cking act together. I would not be telling them to woman up and get on with it. Stop complaining and get to work you lazy cow. But I've been using this on myself. WIth extra bad language.
Who wants to swap brains? Because I'm on holiday right now and I need to relax. Anyone?
Looking at my list of things in the pipeline or happening right now... it's a bit much and I don't really understand why I feel like I should be able to handle it all with a smile.
- A kitty I still don't know yet causing problems at night for two weeks.
- Same kitty switching it up to yelling night and day, only stopping for a little sleep.
- Going for the fifth try to get pregnant.
- Having 4 letdowns including two that really knocked me down.
- SOmetimes driving to the clinic three times a week.
- Training for a week full time having to use skills I haven't used in about 15 years
- Wanting to score 10/10 to show my new bosses and myself I am worht the risk they took.
- Starting a new job and leaving what has been my safeplace for 12 years.
- Facing the fact that my parents are in fact not aging but elderly.
- Not sleeping.
- Not being able to excersise
- Gaining weight when I should be loosing to enhance chances of pregnancy.
- Telling myself not to stress out.
If somebody else showed me this list I would NOT be yelling at them to get their f*cking act together. I would not be telling them to woman up and get on with it. Stop complaining and get to work you lazy cow. But I've been using this on myself. WIth extra bad language.
Who wants to swap brains? Because I'm on holiday right now and I need to relax. Anyone?