Because I'm always the fucked up, mentally bizarre, clumsy, twitchy screwy fool who never gets it right, and even when I try to make it better I do such a poor job it needs to be fixed again and again. Some people call it cute and endearing, some people call it stupid self absorbed insanity. I keep trying. I don't even know. I'm tired of people ( Read more... )

I think my "give a fuck" just broke. It's bad enough that I'm in a major depressive episode and already filling up with self-loathing about everything I do and am. It's worse when I forget myself and defend my medication choices to a douchebag who is yelling at me with "All Big Pharma Is Always Evil Forever. You need to stop taking all your poison ( Read more... )

Since my novel is saved to my Gmail account, I've been able to view it in HTML, which has been useful in showing me that it sucks. Seriously, it sucks. I think I shall be doing a huge amount of editing soon. It was begun by an innocent 20-year-old, so now I think it needs to be completely revised by a slightly more mature 27-year-old ( Read more... )