Really long entry about Joe, Migel, & Today YAY! >.
Well today was the craziest yet.
Migel came up to me in the hall.
*he grabs me by my wasit & hugs me*
Me-What the hell was that for
Migel-You know what I love you ^.^
Me-Ugh..why?
Migel-Because your cool
Me-...Okie dokie
*I tried to smile but I knew this was weird..not Migel-ish*
Theres a corner near by & he still has ahold of me
My back finally ends up against the wall his croth right on mine & I'm literally spazing because..thats..just...wrong
He got right up in my face like less then an inch away
Migel-You know what?
Me-*shivers a little* Uhgm...what?
Migel-Your too good for Joe..you should dump him
Me-What would be that...purpose of that?
Migel-To hook up with me..?
Me-Ugh...I can't, I love him
Migel-I heard how you talked about him at lunch he won't even answer his stupid phone for you
Me-He was..ughm...sleeping he had work in a few hours
By this time I'm pretty sure he had a fucking boner :-S
You know how odd it is to have a random guys dick that close
I felt like I was gonna puke
I literally started to shake
*bell rings*
Me-Ugh..I gotta go ...so do you..
Migel-You should think about it atleast
Me-Uh...bye
I went into Government & had a panic attack ended up just laying there on my desk kinda hyper & sick at the same time
I just can't understand him.
I didn't tell Joe everything of course. I doubt he would have cared much more anyways.
Then oh heres the worst part.
At lunch Dylan put his arms around me & wouldn't let go..
At one point & time he was groping my boob
I was like FUCKER STOP!
I yelled so loud a teacher came over
That got his hands off my right quick.
I was so pissed.
But I just feel so bad for these two guys.
Not really Migel just because he is fresh meat.
Everyone of my friends is like inlove with him.
So it's odd I was even one of his choices.
I mean Abbee is a slut yes. But she still has the biggest tits I've ever seen on a 15 year old.
Kim is...I dunno what Kim is.
Just as desperate as Migel I guess.
So maybe thats why shes likes him.
Alls I could think was what if he had kiss me.
I would have hit him.
He's a really nice guy.
I still want him as a friend even though technically he molested me.
Not the first time a guy friend has done that.
On Monday...I really need to set him straight.
Same goes with Dylan.
If they don't get it then I guess I'll just have to kick them both very hard in the balls.
I mean I get this feelings from Joe like he automatically expects me to go for whatever some stupid guy is dishing out.
Uh..no.
Just like with when I hate someone I never stop hating them when I'm inlove I can't make that go away.
So therefore I don't fuck random guys.
Or anyone except Joe.
I feel guilty about this even though none of it was my fault.
But at the same time I feel like I have some control over things now.
If Joe gets tired of me then let him.
I've found out that you don't try to make someone love you when they don't.
It's never worth it & you always end up more hurt.
It's odd that I have about 20 people telling me to leave Joe.
Telling me anyone is better then him.
I've bearly said shit to these people about him.
He simply loves working money.
So he loves work.
I doubt he's ever taken a day off in his whole time working anywhere unless he absolutely had to.
Where all this money goes I'm not sure.
Probely to his truck & X-box.
Doesn't matter to me.
I hate when he buys me anything because of his preconceived notion that I'm a gold digger.
I won't lets him buy me food & he's never offered to buy me anything else so atleast that part of the realtionship is easy to understand.
God right now I'm so confused.
Alls I know is that tonight I wanted one thing.
Didn't get it even though I hoped for it.
Not sex.
Nothing like that.
Just something simple.
But oh well.
Later,
Spooky
P.s. - Also tonight at Joe's poor guy was so tired he fell asleep after one round of sex.
I was like wow was it that bad. I just layed there occasionally looking over at the t.v.
I could tell it wasn't 'Hey I just had sex tired' it was more 'God fucking hell I didn't really want to get out of bed till 7:30 & now your here..damnit' tired
Ha! :\
Migel came up to me in the hall.
*he grabs me by my wasit & hugs me*
Me-What the hell was that for
Migel-You know what I love you ^.^
Me-Ugh..why?
Migel-Because your cool
Me-...Okie dokie
*I tried to smile but I knew this was weird..not Migel-ish*
Theres a corner near by & he still has ahold of me
My back finally ends up against the wall his croth right on mine & I'm literally spazing because..thats..just...wrong
He got right up in my face like less then an inch away
Migel-You know what?
Me-*shivers a little* Uhgm...what?
Migel-Your too good for Joe..you should dump him
Me-What would be that...purpose of that?
Migel-To hook up with me..?
Me-Ugh...I can't, I love him
Migel-I heard how you talked about him at lunch he won't even answer his stupid phone for you
Me-He was..ughm...sleeping he had work in a few hours
By this time I'm pretty sure he had a fucking boner :-S
You know how odd it is to have a random guys dick that close
I felt like I was gonna puke
I literally started to shake
*bell rings*
Me-Ugh..I gotta go ...so do you..
Migel-You should think about it atleast
Me-Uh...bye
I went into Government & had a panic attack ended up just laying there on my desk kinda hyper & sick at the same time
I just can't understand him.
I didn't tell Joe everything of course. I doubt he would have cared much more anyways.
Then oh heres the worst part.
At lunch Dylan put his arms around me & wouldn't let go..
At one point & time he was groping my boob
I was like FUCKER STOP!
I yelled so loud a teacher came over
That got his hands off my right quick.
I was so pissed.
But I just feel so bad for these two guys.
Not really Migel just because he is fresh meat.
Everyone of my friends is like inlove with him.
So it's odd I was even one of his choices.
I mean Abbee is a slut yes. But she still has the biggest tits I've ever seen on a 15 year old.
Kim is...I dunno what Kim is.
Just as desperate as Migel I guess.
So maybe thats why shes likes him.
Alls I could think was what if he had kiss me.
I would have hit him.
He's a really nice guy.
I still want him as a friend even though technically he molested me.
Not the first time a guy friend has done that.
On Monday...I really need to set him straight.
Same goes with Dylan.
If they don't get it then I guess I'll just have to kick them both very hard in the balls.
I mean I get this feelings from Joe like he automatically expects me to go for whatever some stupid guy is dishing out.
Uh..no.
Just like with when I hate someone I never stop hating them when I'm inlove I can't make that go away.
So therefore I don't fuck random guys.
Or anyone except Joe.
I feel guilty about this even though none of it was my fault.
But at the same time I feel like I have some control over things now.
If Joe gets tired of me then let him.
I've found out that you don't try to make someone love you when they don't.
It's never worth it & you always end up more hurt.
It's odd that I have about 20 people telling me to leave Joe.
Telling me anyone is better then him.
I've bearly said shit to these people about him.
He simply loves working money.
So he loves work.
I doubt he's ever taken a day off in his whole time working anywhere unless he absolutely had to.
Where all this money goes I'm not sure.
Probely to his truck & X-box.
Doesn't matter to me.
I hate when he buys me anything because of his preconceived notion that I'm a gold digger.
I won't lets him buy me food & he's never offered to buy me anything else so atleast that part of the realtionship is easy to understand.
God right now I'm so confused.
Alls I know is that tonight I wanted one thing.
Didn't get it even though I hoped for it.
Not sex.
Nothing like that.
Just something simple.
But oh well.
Later,
Spooky
P.s. - Also tonight at Joe's poor guy was so tired he fell asleep after one round of sex.
I was like wow was it that bad. I just layed there occasionally looking over at the t.v.
I could tell it wasn't 'Hey I just had sex tired' it was more 'God fucking hell I didn't really want to get out of bed till 7:30 & now your here..damnit' tired
Ha! :\