go with the flow
so i was reading a magazine today, and there was an article about how cool and unlame it is to live by yourself and be on your own, because you learn how to take care of and entertain yourself and all that, and i came to the realization that i have absolutely NO living-alone skills. like, none. i really enjoy alone time, when i can do what i want, but most of the time i dont really do ANYTHING. i watch tv. i cruise the internet. i check my myspace. maybe if i have a little bit of energy ill do the dishes. but ultimately, my time is pretty much spent waiting for jeremy to come home. even though when he comes home i do all the things i do when im alone, just with his company. i mean, why cant i use this time to draw or write or do something constructive? i keep blaming my stupid apartment, which really isnt stupid at all, its quite a nice little apartment, but i keep telling myself its not a good enough space for me. when i have a better space ill be able to get my creative juices flowing. i actually thought of a really cool story book idea last night, maybe if i decide to write it out before i finish updating this you guys can tell me what you think. in the meantime.....its always strange when you realize something you've been blaming for your behavioral patterns is really innocent, and the problem becomes even bigger. someday im going to HAVE to learn to entertain myself.
in other news, things are rather uncertain about my job.....two of the stores my department supplied to decided to buy their own flowers directly from growers, which means nobody has to go in and cut flowers and make bouquets for them, which means i may be out of a job. they might be able to use me like, one day a week i suppose, for the other stores we supply but its less than half the work we were doing before. i'll just have to wait and see whether there's another position in the store they could use me for, because i really dont want to stop working at f&f! but i did drop off an application at ritz camera in towson before i even knew about this possibly getting laid off busines, just because i think it would be really cool to print pictures again. i want to have nothing to do with selling cameras, i just want to print peoples vacation pictures. wicked cool.
i wish so much that it was christmas....
i want it to be christmas, but i want to have money for christmas. im so sick of being broke!
alright well.....i dont really feel like typing out my story idea, because i just thought of it last night and im not even sure about it yet. i sort of go through phases with my ideas, where one night ill think its the cleverest thing ever, and then the next night ill think eh, maybe its not as great as i think it is.....so if you want to know, ask, and maybe ill tell you.
friends is almost over on tv. i might have to bust out my dvds. no. no more friends. actually, you know what movie ive been dying to watch recently? office space. i havent seen that movie in forever. okay, friends it is, but i have to find something else to do while i watch. i promise.
in other news, things are rather uncertain about my job.....two of the stores my department supplied to decided to buy their own flowers directly from growers, which means nobody has to go in and cut flowers and make bouquets for them, which means i may be out of a job. they might be able to use me like, one day a week i suppose, for the other stores we supply but its less than half the work we were doing before. i'll just have to wait and see whether there's another position in the store they could use me for, because i really dont want to stop working at f&f! but i did drop off an application at ritz camera in towson before i even knew about this possibly getting laid off busines, just because i think it would be really cool to print pictures again. i want to have nothing to do with selling cameras, i just want to print peoples vacation pictures. wicked cool.
i wish so much that it was christmas....
i want it to be christmas, but i want to have money for christmas. im so sick of being broke!
alright well.....i dont really feel like typing out my story idea, because i just thought of it last night and im not even sure about it yet. i sort of go through phases with my ideas, where one night ill think its the cleverest thing ever, and then the next night ill think eh, maybe its not as great as i think it is.....so if you want to know, ask, and maybe ill tell you.
friends is almost over on tv. i might have to bust out my dvds. no. no more friends. actually, you know what movie ive been dying to watch recently? office space. i havent seen that movie in forever. okay, friends it is, but i have to find something else to do while i watch. i promise.