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[brigadoor]

i feel sadly like there's nothing new in my life
i feel like i've taken all the fun things out of my life
and traded them in for exhaustion
i feel exhausted
but at the same time i feel like i am doing nothing with my life
i'm in a waiting period
and feel useless
life seems neutral
i feel like i've lost all those people i once held close to me
i've chased them away
now i'm stuck with regulars
who i wouldn't neccessarily call friends
just people
there
i try to grow
but growing is so hard when you're in a confined box
i try to learn
but learning is impossible when you don't understand
i try to reach
but my arms are cut off
i stretch and stretch and stretch
but in the end i still pull muscles trying to please
i feel held down by this earth
and cannot wait for the days when i'm in heaven with my God
where there is no loneliness
no heart ache
no tears
no pain
i feel so alone
i am batman

->michelle<-