Kattvakt
The very last item on the "to do" list on Kjell's refrigerator whiteboard was "Kattvakt - 11 - 13 juni".
Björn's dad was supposed to come to the cabin that weekend and "kattvakt" - babysit the cat - while Björn and I were away.
He died, of course, two weeks before that trip.
I have, however, started wondering if Kjell took that refrigerator whiteboard with him to heaven and is taking his kattvakt duties seriously.
Ever since Kjell left us, Hanna has become much MUCH more loving, generous with herself, interested in being with us - while at the same time maintaining her self-sufficient, stubborn, independent nature.. She has, in fact, become exactly what I think Kjell would be if he were a cat.
I don't really know if we can interact with the living from the other side - I hope that we can and I'm comforted by the signs around me that Kjell is still interested in our lives. This thing with Hanna I take as great comfort - if it's just my fantasy, so be it.
On the other hand, if Kjell's beautiful and generous spirit is influencing our cat then she's the better for it and we're definitely on the receiving end of yet more Kjell love.
In either case, I believe without at doubt that Kjell is pleased with the result.
Björn's dad was supposed to come to the cabin that weekend and "kattvakt" - babysit the cat - while Björn and I were away.
He died, of course, two weeks before that trip.
I have, however, started wondering if Kjell took that refrigerator whiteboard with him to heaven and is taking his kattvakt duties seriously.
Ever since Kjell left us, Hanna has become much MUCH more loving, generous with herself, interested in being with us - while at the same time maintaining her self-sufficient, stubborn, independent nature.. She has, in fact, become exactly what I think Kjell would be if he were a cat.
I don't really know if we can interact with the living from the other side - I hope that we can and I'm comforted by the signs around me that Kjell is still interested in our lives. This thing with Hanna I take as great comfort - if it's just my fantasy, so be it.
On the other hand, if Kjell's beautiful and generous spirit is influencing our cat then she's the better for it and we're definitely on the receiving end of yet more Kjell love.
In either case, I believe without at doubt that Kjell is pleased with the result.