Feb 19, 2006 22:49
Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. -Yoda
I've been thinking about this quotation a lot this week. Thinking about what I'm afraid of. What David was afraid of. What the heck Beth is afraid of. Thinking about what makes me angry. Cause I'm angry a lot more often than I should be.
Aren't we all afraid, deep down inside, that if we let someone see the real us, that the people that we care about wouldn't like us? Isn't that the one thing we all fear? Isn't that why we hide our feelings, keep things from people, try to be something that we're not? Because we're afraid of rejection? I know my biggest fear lately is being alone. Being lonely.
And doesn't it all boil down to the fact that we don't love ourselves? Because if we did love ourselves, it wouldn't matter quite so much what other people thought about us, because we'd still know we were OK.
It's not easy, but I'm working on it. "It" being the loving myself bit. Although I'll admit, there are days when I feel like Stuart Smalley, looking at myself in the mirror saying "I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and dog-gone it, people like me."
beth