Whoa...OMG...This is...Whoa...
So the last couple of weeks I've done some AMAZING work in therapy. To sum things up, last week I conquered two demons in my head and got further down in my psyche than ever before, and saw what was there. Now, however, after even more work, self-reflection, and thought, I've turned a corner...
There's a new voice in my head...the voice of love, reason, and intelligence. It was drowned out before by the voices of anxiety and fear, but they're quiet now, so I can hear that new voice in my head clearly, and I'm actually starting to believe it. I'm starting to believe that I truly am an awesome guy...that I'm a good person deserving of love, respect, affection and adoration...that I should love myself as others love me and have loved me. I'm actually feeling positive about myself...possibly for the first time ever.
It's a good, strange, odd feeling. But it's getting clearer in my head, and I can see that I'm on a new road, and it's not just a road, it's a highway. I can clearly see the highway, the hills and valleys it crosses, the desert, i can feel the wind, hear the sounds, and I can see the moutain up ahead. The mountain of strength that I know is within myself, that's gotten me this far and will take me even further.
The road is a long one, but it's a good, clear one, and I know I'm going to get to my destination, to be the best me I can be, and to love and believe in myself, finally. I just know right now I feel amazing, clear, tingly, and calm. Again, it's very unusual for me, but I can tell it's very good. Thank you all so much for the support you've all given me thus far, and for the support I know you'll give me on the journey ahead. :)
There's a new voice in my head...the voice of love, reason, and intelligence. It was drowned out before by the voices of anxiety and fear, but they're quiet now, so I can hear that new voice in my head clearly, and I'm actually starting to believe it. I'm starting to believe that I truly am an awesome guy...that I'm a good person deserving of love, respect, affection and adoration...that I should love myself as others love me and have loved me. I'm actually feeling positive about myself...possibly for the first time ever.
It's a good, strange, odd feeling. But it's getting clearer in my head, and I can see that I'm on a new road, and it's not just a road, it's a highway. I can clearly see the highway, the hills and valleys it crosses, the desert, i can feel the wind, hear the sounds, and I can see the moutain up ahead. The mountain of strength that I know is within myself, that's gotten me this far and will take me even further.
The road is a long one, but it's a good, clear one, and I know I'm going to get to my destination, to be the best me I can be, and to love and believe in myself, finally. I just know right now I feel amazing, clear, tingly, and calm. Again, it's very unusual for me, but I can tell it's very good. Thank you all so much for the support you've all given me thus far, and for the support I know you'll give me on the journey ahead. :)