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Alright...
everything I can get done right now is done...so why is there a nagging feeling in the back of my head? anyway....the church AND reception hall is booked. April 21, 2007 at 2pm I will be a married woman. Yikes...that's scary huh??
my schedule's filling up again and I'm not even working. I'm overwhelmed with this wedding stuff. I just feel that right now, I have the two major things outta the way, I shouldn't have to look at flower arrangements or invitations...or whatever....every moment of the day. I won't bitch anymore about it because I really DO love wedding stuff. I'm just getting all those pre-marriage jitters and my wedding isn't for another nine months. I think it's just the anticipation of it all. I mean, I do have a lot going on right now.
I finish school at the beginning of September. I'm still debating on whether or not to just stay here and start working, or go live with Adam. It would be easier if we decided not to live together until we got married. I mean, his mom is my main reason for not wanting to live with him. I won't go into it...but she's strongly against it....and I don't know why I'm letting ONE person discourage me from it. Seriously...if my own dad can get over it, anyone can. But still...I just don't want to cause anymore stress on anyone. I'm just trying to figure out the best way to actually talk to Adam about it....which is nearly impossible as of lately. It just seems like when we're together, we're never alone....or we're doing wedding stuff. And then when we do get on the phone, it's a lot of one worded answers to a lot of empty, meaningless questions. It's because we're both so tired all the time.
Why am I rambling on and on...it's because I've gone like three hours without a cigarette now. Which means...I'm goin to go do that now, and then head to sleep.
And should it bother me that my fiance is going out to Peabody's tomorrow night?
I'm going to sit at home and sulk tomorrow. Maybe break into that bottle of wine downstairs.