the joys of limbosatorikenOctober 6 2005, 01:09:46 UTC
I sympathize with ya- I've been going through similar thoughts for about a year now. I found that making lists did help get everything out on the table, but it didn't really help me cement any one path- more the process of perusing the roads that sparkle and what dangers they might hold. I found that the more I weighed my options, the less sure of this whole "growing up" bit I felt. It seemed like the world was too vast and filled with too much potential for me to pick any one thing to be doing, so I was torn with indecision. This had me worried, afraid of the unknown and unknowable future, and generally feeling very much like a chicken with its head cut off. My introspections helped a bit, but I found that what finally brought me a sense of peace was a different track of introspection. Instead of thinking of what I wanted to do or where I wanted to be, I thought long and hard on who I wanted to be. I solidified my core values, and explored ideas of the type of person I want to grow into. Once I had that ideal to latch onto, everything else calmed down a bit. I now have an anchor to my future, one that I can control and change if need be. And that is very comforting. Sure, I still don't know for sure exactly what I want to do, but I'm starting to feel things out more and am not so nearly as anxious about the whole ordeal. Not sure if any of this is making sense. I also tried to keep it general enough to apply to more than just meself, but if you want any more concrete examples or the like, well, I'll try to provide them. *hugs* I wish you luck in whatever choices you make, and may peace and happiness dance with you always.
I found that the more I weighed my options, the less sure of this whole "growing up" bit I felt. It seemed like the world was too vast and filled with too much potential for me to pick any one thing to be doing, so I was torn with indecision. This had me worried, afraid of the unknown and unknowable future, and generally feeling very much like a chicken with its head cut off.
My introspections helped a bit, but I found that what finally brought me a sense of peace was a different track of introspection. Instead of thinking of what I wanted to do or where I wanted to be, I thought long and hard on who I wanted to be. I solidified my core values, and explored ideas of the type of person I want to grow into. Once I had that ideal to latch onto, everything else calmed down a bit. I now have an anchor to my future, one that I can control and change if need be. And that is very comforting. Sure, I still don't know for sure exactly what I want to do, but I'm starting to feel things out more and am not so nearly as anxious about the whole ordeal.
Not sure if any of this is making sense. I also tried to keep it general enough to apply to more than just meself, but if you want any more concrete examples or the like, well, I'll try to provide them.
*hugs* I wish you luck in whatever choices you make, and may peace and happiness dance with you always.
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