doot doo dooooo.....ayaprunOctober 5 2005, 14:49:16 UTC
Trista said i should read your live journal.....so i have.
Brenna!....
All right my two cents ....
DO WHAT EVER THE FUCK YOU WANT TO DO ALWAYS AND FOREVER!
So I was sitting in my fruit fly infested apartment in germany with all of my "landlords" yellow shit everywhere, yellow blankets, yellow pillows, yellow everything.....All I wanted to do was rip out my hair, braid it, and strangle myself. 3 Months i spent there. Alone. Playing guitar. Watching German mtv to learn german because I couldn't understand the german news. I wanted to come back home so bad that I depressed myself. I knew that I had to stay there though if I ever wanted to feel like I accomplished anything in my life.
You don't have to stay in Seattle. You don't have to come to Fairbanks. Here's an idea. Visit Fairbanks for a year and go back. That's what I think Wakan's doing. You can survive a winter. I got my girlfriend (from california) to want to stay the winter even though she dreads it. Recharge your batteries here and then GET THE HELL OUT. Thats what I do. I'm just finishing up my responsibilities to uaf and then I'm working and then I'm in Brazil.....that's my 2 or 3 year plan. Shit, I don't know if that'll happen, but I want it to, so I'll try to make it happen. If I just sat at home and watched t.v. or movies like I did a lot in the beginning in Germany, than I would miss out on so much. I know it doesn't seem like there is so much to do here or in seattle that doesn't involve drinking. I have the same grips you do. I'll send you a private email that says what's really on my mind for the winter...
Some times you need family and old friends to make you feel better, and give you that feeling of being able to go far away to lonely places and never feel alone.
I will try to call you this week to talk.
I love you, stay away from boys, unless they rock,
Brenna!....
All right my two cents ....
DO WHAT EVER THE FUCK YOU WANT TO DO ALWAYS AND FOREVER!
So I was sitting in my fruit fly infested apartment in germany with all of my "landlords" yellow shit everywhere, yellow blankets, yellow pillows, yellow everything.....All I wanted to do was rip out my hair, braid it, and strangle myself. 3 Months i spent there. Alone. Playing guitar. Watching German mtv to learn german because I couldn't understand the german news. I wanted to come back home so bad that I depressed myself. I knew that I had to stay there though if I ever wanted to feel like I accomplished anything in my life.
You don't have to stay in Seattle. You don't have to come to Fairbanks. Here's an idea. Visit Fairbanks for a year and go back. That's what I think Wakan's doing. You can survive a winter. I got my girlfriend (from california) to want to stay the winter even though she dreads it. Recharge your batteries here and then GET THE HELL OUT. Thats what I do. I'm just finishing up my responsibilities to uaf and then I'm working and then I'm in Brazil.....that's my 2 or 3 year plan. Shit, I don't know if that'll happen, but I want it to, so I'll try to make it happen. If I just sat at home and watched t.v. or movies like I did a lot in the beginning in Germany, than I would miss out on so much. I know it doesn't seem like there is so much to do here or in seattle that doesn't involve drinking. I have the same grips you do. I'll send you a private email that says what's really on my mind for the winter...
Some times you need family and old friends to make you feel better, and give you that feeling of being able to go far away to lonely places and never feel alone.
I will try to call you this week to talk.
I love you,
stay away from boys,
unless they rock,
ian
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