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so this weekend is turning into one of the worst.
alisha called me last night and said we need to talk...nuff said. not really gonna go into detail so if you wanna know exaclty what went down just talk to me or something. but for the most part its over, whatever it was. it hurts so bad. i cant stop thinking about her and it just makes it so much worse. i had to come home to saginaw. i had to get away from everything. now its just a lingering thought in my mind that i spent so much time and effort on something there is never going to be anything to show for it but a broken heart and an even bigger lack of self confidence and self esteem. even though everyone is telling me not to let it get to me cuz she obviously wasnt worth the effort i cant help but disagree...she was totally worth the effort. i just wish i could have seen what was happening and not be so blind. i feel lost. and alone. i cant stop hurting.
alisha called me last night and said we need to talk...nuff said. not really gonna go into detail so if you wanna know exaclty what went down just talk to me or something. but for the most part its over, whatever it was. it hurts so bad. i cant stop thinking about her and it just makes it so much worse. i had to come home to saginaw. i had to get away from everything. now its just a lingering thought in my mind that i spent so much time and effort on something there is never going to be anything to show for it but a broken heart and an even bigger lack of self confidence and self esteem. even though everyone is telling me not to let it get to me cuz she obviously wasnt worth the effort i cant help but disagree...she was totally worth the effort. i just wish i could have seen what was happening and not be so blind. i feel lost. and alone. i cant stop hurting.