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school is so hard these days. and in failing things, damnit i cant afford to fail things.
i hate being wiht all my friedns. i hate how everyone has omone to be with.
-lisa and whats-his-face
-bri and guss
-dre and alberto
-holly and justin
-janelle and david
-raven and whats-his-name
i mean shit. its reeeeeeeeeeeally depressing when u alone, especially when HE hasnt called me since friday. that hurts. and i have a feeling that hes not going to. that hurts.....even more.
i hate being wihtout him. i hate that i gave so much up for him and now im left wiht nothing. i hate feelin sooooooo lonely inside. i hate crying at nihgt. i hate that i cant hate him even though he deserves it more then anything.
i just hurt so much. and i hate listening to how great guss is and how wonderfuly happy bri is. i mean im happy for her. but just not right now. this sucks so bad. i ust miss him. i miss being wiht him. i miss the dumb conversations we used to have for houres about nothing and evertyhing. i miss the way he would look at me like i was the only thing in the world that matterd. i miss the way his long arms would wrap around me when we would hug. i miss the way he would call me babe. i miss how he would say i love you when i was upset over something and the world was all better again.
god. i love him. but i know i havet o let go. its soooo hard to let him go. its soooo hard not to call him. its soooo hard to wake up in the morning. to get ready. only to live another day alone. and not just alone. but wiht out him. thats the worst. he made me feel so compleate. so whole. so alive. and now thats gone. and i guess that just hurts me so damn much. i just wanna look into his eyes one more time. i wanna hear that he loves me. i ant him to hug me on more time. i want him to look at me they way he used to.
the way he used to......
i hate being wiht all my friedns. i hate how everyone has omone to be with.
-lisa and whats-his-face
-bri and guss
-dre and alberto
-holly and justin
-janelle and david
-raven and whats-his-name
i mean shit. its reeeeeeeeeeeally depressing when u alone, especially when HE hasnt called me since friday. that hurts. and i have a feeling that hes not going to. that hurts.....even more.
i hate being wihtout him. i hate that i gave so much up for him and now im left wiht nothing. i hate feelin sooooooo lonely inside. i hate crying at nihgt. i hate that i cant hate him even though he deserves it more then anything.
i just hurt so much. and i hate listening to how great guss is and how wonderfuly happy bri is. i mean im happy for her. but just not right now. this sucks so bad. i ust miss him. i miss being wiht him. i miss the dumb conversations we used to have for houres about nothing and evertyhing. i miss the way he would look at me like i was the only thing in the world that matterd. i miss the way his long arms would wrap around me when we would hug. i miss the way he would call me babe. i miss how he would say i love you when i was upset over something and the world was all better again.
god. i love him. but i know i havet o let go. its soooo hard to let him go. its soooo hard not to call him. its soooo hard to wake up in the morning. to get ready. only to live another day alone. and not just alone. but wiht out him. thats the worst. he made me feel so compleate. so whole. so alive. and now thats gone. and i guess that just hurts me so damn much. i just wanna look into his eyes one more time. i wanna hear that he loves me. i ant him to hug me on more time. i want him to look at me they way he used to.
the way he used to......