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why do i even look at them there is no satisfaction
all i see is resentment and frustration, hurt, love what if's
why do i want to know things about it that will cause me anger and pain
i would do better not to know or not to hear and not to see
i thought it wasnt over but that isnt the case
i thought i could be different and not be the same old me
its hard to move forward and not to get stuck in old patterns
but its so hard to forget the past and to not think of moments in time when i was happy and content and had such a gust for life and people and our situation. to be blank and feel bleak would be perfection , not to wander into thought or has been or were he had been. to erase all that was painful and that was happy and to start over in a complete naive nakedness. can i please start over and make better decisions, shut doors that were never meant to open, make things dull instead of exciting. give it back to me. now its hard to keep a conversation with anybody without drifting into my own hurt and drama. Theres no interest its just fake and uncomfortable i have lost the ability to communicate with people, how does one do that? we are all just addicts to our emotions and so we put ourselves in situations where we will feel that chemical response wether its love, hate, sadness joy or chaos. whats your addiction? blah nevermind this rambled post of my thoughts. i am no philosopher but a broken hearted individual wholets their emotions get the btter of them.
all i see is resentment and frustration, hurt, love what if's
why do i want to know things about it that will cause me anger and pain
i would do better not to know or not to hear and not to see
i thought it wasnt over but that isnt the case
i thought i could be different and not be the same old me
its hard to move forward and not to get stuck in old patterns
but its so hard to forget the past and to not think of moments in time when i was happy and content and had such a gust for life and people and our situation. to be blank and feel bleak would be perfection , not to wander into thought or has been or were he had been. to erase all that was painful and that was happy and to start over in a complete naive nakedness. can i please start over and make better decisions, shut doors that were never meant to open, make things dull instead of exciting. give it back to me. now its hard to keep a conversation with anybody without drifting into my own hurt and drama. Theres no interest its just fake and uncomfortable i have lost the ability to communicate with people, how does one do that? we are all just addicts to our emotions and so we put ourselves in situations where we will feel that chemical response wether its love, hate, sadness joy or chaos. whats your addiction? blah nevermind this rambled post of my thoughts. i am no philosopher but a broken hearted individual wholets their emotions get the btter of them.