I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T WANT ME
1. Possibly/probably sick again.
2. IOU concert recap. Really quickly: Jackie was being an awkward jerk the whole time (UGH I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE TO SEE THE USED >:[). All the fans were hideous. Broken up in chart below:
Stuck next to a huge bitch and her smelly boyfriend, and in front of me was Ugly Ginger Girl With No Social Skills And Too Much Hair. The first band sucked, but they were hella good looking. The Almost were pretty good and then the singer who's name escapes me ruined it by telling me that Jesus loves me. Not cool, man. I'm deleting Underoath from my computer (the singer was in that band, too.) After The Used came on I finally got to move and got all the way to the front. I always forget how difficult it is to actually do work in crowds.Especially because I am comparatively very small. There was some GIANT girl who was like I'm gonna pass outttttt you guyyyyyyyyys and we tried to lift her out. In the end it took everyone in the immediate vicinity and three security guards to lift her over the barricade. Eventually that bitch from the beginning was suddenly next to me and made it her mission in life to try to kill me. At least her pungent/hideous boyfriend wasn't there. There was a very tall bro who I could've sworn was going to kill me but he actually turned out to be a sweet dude! They played Blue and Yellow, On My Own and Box Of Sharp Objects. Life is complete. Whatever signing situation they had didn't end up happening to my knowledge, but we had to get to the train asap, so it didn't really matter anyway.
3. Fairly behind on work for college. I still need to do all of the RISD things and 1.5 Parsons. Once I have those in order, I'm pretty much good to go. I'd like to do a better landscape in, like, watercolor if I get a chance.
4. Sean is still texting me like crazy, which is good for my self esteem and bad for my texting allowance. I have 100+ left for all of November. Not gonna happen. He's less and less looking like an option. He texted me that he was 'so fucked up' one night (read: drunk) and he texted me that he was going to church on sunday! what! I'm all for people doing stuff that's meaningful to them, but it sure isn't helping my ~anxiety about revealing my deep dark secrets of being from an ~orthodox family. I KNOW it's not really a big deal. Theoretically. But I feel like I'm sort of a tough sell in the first place and then I'm adding this baggage! Right now I think I'd really just want to hook up with him, get some experience points, whatever. Nothing serious or stressful. He's gonna be a total lady about it, though, and I wouldn't wanna come off as a bitch or a slut. Maybe I've become both.
5. Idek. I really miss some of my friends. Changing without me just doesn't seem fair. Soon my flickr will actually be worth looking at! Posting a link when that happens :D AND MY CHARGER REFUND ACTUALLY CAME THROUGH :D :D :D Very excited for that.
6. Snuck out to trick or treat with people on halloween. It was pretty nerve racking, and we didn't actually do anything real? Like, I'm glad I did it, but I can't help but feel like if I'm sneaking out I should be, like, dancing sluttily with boys. Or. Consuming an alcoholic beverage. Well, not as much that last one. I don't know what I'm looking for anymore.