Human needs.
Tonight I find myself inspired. I want to write another song. But the words are a bit twisted, and their meaning is lost, even to me. I wonder where to go from there. They're off the beat, if only a moment.
Maybe sleep is a good idea. I have work tomorrow after all. A job most dreadful and dull. Where do I go from here? Where do I go.
He texts me all the time now. And still it hurts to know, the last four years meant hardly a thing to him. He changed my life for the good in so many ways, but I meant so little. He says no one is there for him. He says everyone leaves, turns their backs on him. That he's never been proven wrong in that. That I don't know him at all anyway. The boy I love is self-destructing and I'm 1500 miles away. This time, I can't save him. This time, he doesn't really want me to. I'm not good enough for him. I never was, I guess.
We were talking, about how lonely he's been. He said he'd die alone. I said he wouldn't, he could always settle for me. He said I wouldn't like it if he settled. I wish he had said it wouldn't be settling. Am I that unimportant? Do I mean that little?
I have always been the one to try and show love, to keep my friends hearts close to mine. But somehow, I've ended up alone again tonight. How can it be that no one loves me nearly as much as I love them? I'm not saying they don't love me...but, I've always been second best.
Venting isn't helping anymore. I want to be cared about. I want someone to be concerned when I can't sleep at night. I need to feel...important. wanted. loved. Instead, I feel left behind.
It's been a long couple of days.
Maybe sleep is a good idea. I have work tomorrow after all. A job most dreadful and dull. Where do I go from here? Where do I go.
He texts me all the time now. And still it hurts to know, the last four years meant hardly a thing to him. He changed my life for the good in so many ways, but I meant so little. He says no one is there for him. He says everyone leaves, turns their backs on him. That he's never been proven wrong in that. That I don't know him at all anyway. The boy I love is self-destructing and I'm 1500 miles away. This time, I can't save him. This time, he doesn't really want me to. I'm not good enough for him. I never was, I guess.
We were talking, about how lonely he's been. He said he'd die alone. I said he wouldn't, he could always settle for me. He said I wouldn't like it if he settled. I wish he had said it wouldn't be settling. Am I that unimportant? Do I mean that little?
I have always been the one to try and show love, to keep my friends hearts close to mine. But somehow, I've ended up alone again tonight. How can it be that no one loves me nearly as much as I love them? I'm not saying they don't love me...but, I've always been second best.
Venting isn't helping anymore. I want to be cared about. I want someone to be concerned when I can't sleep at night. I need to feel...important. wanted. loved. Instead, I feel left behind.
It's been a long couple of days.