every desert has a rose........FM
well i really dont know what im doing....on my left hand i have dante...pinkie for the fact that he likes me as much if not more than i do....ring finger for obvious reasons and the fact that he says he wants to marry me and the fact that i would love to marry him...middle finger for saying fuck you to myself for hurting him if i tell him about cameron or the fact that i havent....index for how much i love him and how long i have known him....thumb for i cant wait until i see him and the way he always makes me feel happy and jsut awesome...i think he could possibly be perfect............now on the right hand i have cameron....pinkie for the fact taht i love hanging out with him and the way that we joke around and have a good time for the most part.....ring finger for the fact that i love to hold his hand and i like taht he wants to do things with me, but i dont like that he doesnt understand i dontlike to be touched and taht if he really likes me, he wouldnt get mad at me for it rather he might try and wait for me to be more comfortable about the whole thing....middle finger to say fuck you because he can be a complete asshole some of the time and acts like he doesnt like me in public, but then when we are alone and no one is around he "loves me".....wahtever.....index for the fact that i can see him all the time and i dont have to worry about not seeing him or worrying if he is cheating on me....thumb for the fact that its okay taht we talk to each other at school because we were friends before and leone cant change that.....even though i hate the drama that im going through.................well on a more light note...i went to a tanning salon for the first time ever on sunday and i got completely sunburned and i went again today...im afraid i might get cancer in my bum but all is well.....i talked to jay for like an hour today and it was really funnny....i love the kid...he is hilarious.........well i better be off to bed and dream about the most perfect boy for me and how much i would love to marry him as well...i can wait until he comes out here and i get to see him.....i want to see my present so bad i cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!