And so it goes, it's the devil, I suppose...
It's been a while since I last wrote so I thought I'd get around to it.
My previous heartbreak has healed. After a few weeks of no contact and talking to new girls, I managed to put it behind me. It seems a little silly now but sometimes the heart gets caught up in things it doesn't intend on. I don't really talk to her anymore. I'm sure I will again some day but for now I'm going to let things be. She seems very happy and I think she found a nice guy so I can't really complain. I'm glad she's happy. Suffice to say, I didn't go to FL for Halloween. It was the right decision. Chris should be coming to visit soon, though, so it'll be nice to see him in my neighborhood. I don't think he's been to visit me since winter of '09. Can't wait to see him.
I've had moderate luck with getting dates and talking to a few girls. One in particular was pretty memorable. She works at my local grocery store and she always made small-talk with me and made jokes so I assumed she was being flirtatious. I asked for her number but she said she had a boyfriend. Two weeks later I'm buying beer for a bonfire and she basically calls me out and says she has to talk to me before I leave. When I'm checking out she asked if I still wanted her number. I told her no seeing as how she had a boyfriend. Apparently they broke up not long after we met and she had been waiting those two weeks hoping to see me again so that she could tell me she changed her mind. Our first date was enjoyable. We had Mexican and ended up at the strip club. Yeah. No typo there. The strip club. Apparently she used to be a stripper. That was a pretty awesome night. On another occasion we hung out and let's just say things went a bit differently. Long story short, her ex-boyfriend shows up at her house while we're both there in a crazy rampage. This guy is my height, covered in tattoos, 30 years old, a bouncer and also a coke addict. Things were looking nasty for a while but we managed to get him to leave. Things were a little awkward and I avoided her for a while and then decided it would be best to stay away altogether. I like a good challenge, but, holy fuck - I don't like having my face punched in.
I've really been trying to find a new job as of late. I'm looking into working at a call center that pays $11/hour but I don't think I'll get it. I really need to start working hard and saving a lot of money so I can move or whatever when this lease runs out. Speaking of this lease, the rent is killing me. $375 + ~$100 + $30 every month just to live here and have electricity + Internet (not to mention I'm going without heat right now and it's 28 degrees outside plus other expenses like food, gas, bills, etc :| ) That's over $500/mo alone just to live here. I talked to Joe and they are going to lower rent to $300 and work on getting natural gas. This should help out a lot but I still need more income. Aside from all this, I've just been working and doing the school thing. I won't be enrolling next semester as I need to grind hardcore and make some cash. Mike will be moving back in when/if he gets a job. I'm talking to two or three girls at the moment but for some reason I'm just not making that effort to go in head-first (pun NOT INTENDED.) I don't know what's up with me. Maybe I'm hesitant because I don't want anything serious or maybe because I don't want to deal with all that altogether. Who knows, we'll see what happens. I've also been put in charge of organizing fighting game events for the ECU gaming club. That's pretty awesome. I think I'm going to be involved in that community to some extent.
I'm starting to wonder if I'm even really interested in having a girlfriend or forming a romantic relationship at this point in my life. I like the idea of it but it seems like when I'm close to starting something, I change my mind and think I'd rather be single. Maybe I don't even know what I want. But, I'll know when I find it. And so life goes on...
My previous heartbreak has healed. After a few weeks of no contact and talking to new girls, I managed to put it behind me. It seems a little silly now but sometimes the heart gets caught up in things it doesn't intend on. I don't really talk to her anymore. I'm sure I will again some day but for now I'm going to let things be. She seems very happy and I think she found a nice guy so I can't really complain. I'm glad she's happy. Suffice to say, I didn't go to FL for Halloween. It was the right decision. Chris should be coming to visit soon, though, so it'll be nice to see him in my neighborhood. I don't think he's been to visit me since winter of '09. Can't wait to see him.
I've had moderate luck with getting dates and talking to a few girls. One in particular was pretty memorable. She works at my local grocery store and she always made small-talk with me and made jokes so I assumed she was being flirtatious. I asked for her number but she said she had a boyfriend. Two weeks later I'm buying beer for a bonfire and she basically calls me out and says she has to talk to me before I leave. When I'm checking out she asked if I still wanted her number. I told her no seeing as how she had a boyfriend. Apparently they broke up not long after we met and she had been waiting those two weeks hoping to see me again so that she could tell me she changed her mind. Our first date was enjoyable. We had Mexican and ended up at the strip club. Yeah. No typo there. The strip club. Apparently she used to be a stripper. That was a pretty awesome night. On another occasion we hung out and let's just say things went a bit differently. Long story short, her ex-boyfriend shows up at her house while we're both there in a crazy rampage. This guy is my height, covered in tattoos, 30 years old, a bouncer and also a coke addict. Things were looking nasty for a while but we managed to get him to leave. Things were a little awkward and I avoided her for a while and then decided it would be best to stay away altogether. I like a good challenge, but, holy fuck - I don't like having my face punched in.
I've really been trying to find a new job as of late. I'm looking into working at a call center that pays $11/hour but I don't think I'll get it. I really need to start working hard and saving a lot of money so I can move or whatever when this lease runs out. Speaking of this lease, the rent is killing me. $375 + ~$100 + $30 every month just to live here and have electricity + Internet (not to mention I'm going without heat right now and it's 28 degrees outside plus other expenses like food, gas, bills, etc :| ) That's over $500/mo alone just to live here. I talked to Joe and they are going to lower rent to $300 and work on getting natural gas. This should help out a lot but I still need more income. Aside from all this, I've just been working and doing the school thing. I won't be enrolling next semester as I need to grind hardcore and make some cash. Mike will be moving back in when/if he gets a job. I'm talking to two or three girls at the moment but for some reason I'm just not making that effort to go in head-first (pun NOT INTENDED.) I don't know what's up with me. Maybe I'm hesitant because I don't want anything serious or maybe because I don't want to deal with all that altogether. Who knows, we'll see what happens. I've also been put in charge of organizing fighting game events for the ECU gaming club. That's pretty awesome. I think I'm going to be involved in that community to some extent.
I'm starting to wonder if I'm even really interested in having a girlfriend or forming a romantic relationship at this point in my life. I like the idea of it but it seems like when I'm close to starting something, I change my mind and think I'd rather be single. Maybe I don't even know what I want. But, I'll know when I find it. And so life goes on...