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ok..here's Part 2 to my last entry. I ended up telling my mom that i was not going to be there in the morning no matter if she likes it or not..so yeah she understood and told me that i should..well my dad was not so understanding. he flipped out and yeah so the plan of me going spend a couple nights with paul was still on. until..he got off work and he talked to his mother and grandmother and come to find out they said i couldnt come over because "they did not want to get into my families business" and they also didnt want this to turn into a "more than one time thing"..so yeah i was like what the fuck else could go wrong!?!?!..but yeah so i started getting really nauseated and i was on the phone with paul and i just couldnt stop crying, and the weird thing is i dont know why i was crying either. but yeah then i got to feeling really sick and i blew some chunks. so yeah i decided that i need to stay home and just relax and be stress free and also make sure that i wasnt going to blow chuncks anymore. so yeah i woke up this morning and it looks like a got punched in both in my eyes they are like HUGE from crying so much. but yeah so then my parents came in my room this morning and were like i thought u were going to pauls? and i was like plans got changed and all this blah blah and i told my dad i got really sick last night so i was just going to take one day off and that was it. and he was like thats fine. and then my mother came in and was like r u ok? and im like im better, and she was like since ur home are you going to do anything stupid?, and i was like no, a lot better today and all this and then she was like r u sure because i dont want to leave you here if you are or something idk.i was half asleep at the time. but yeah so thats the end to my depression weekend. kk kids well i think ima go watch some movies..and just go back to sleep. il talk to you later. i love you all and i couldnt have made it through without yall.