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Parent=Divorce
..not offical but i know its coming..
yeah parents bitched at me and voices were raised and yet again i am the one locked in my room crying my eyes out for hours. they fucking wonder why i dont come out of my room. theres to much shit going on right now that i cant take anymore im about to say fuck all this and idk. lets see i want to leave sja, i have friendships that are going down the drain, im depressed, i cry all the time, my parents are always bitching at me about something, i have no one left in my life worth living for except for paul and jordan and at the moment when i need them both the most they arent there. so yeah the plan is that paul is picking me up after he gets off work and im going to go spend a couple days away from my parents. because i know if i stay here i am going to do something stupid not to them but to myself. the parentals dont know of this plan but they are just going to have to deal with it. if not then they must want to find me lying on the floor in a puddle of blood with a note saying i loved you all but i cant do this anymore. but hell who knows with my parents, eh? oh and yeah i still have to write my english paper! joy. k well enough suicide shit its just plain scaring me now..so yeah im going to go finish my english paper and listen to hard metal to get my mind off of things..peace. and god bless.
<3 Jill
..not offical but i know its coming..
yeah parents bitched at me and voices were raised and yet again i am the one locked in my room crying my eyes out for hours. they fucking wonder why i dont come out of my room. theres to much shit going on right now that i cant take anymore im about to say fuck all this and idk. lets see i want to leave sja, i have friendships that are going down the drain, im depressed, i cry all the time, my parents are always bitching at me about something, i have no one left in my life worth living for except for paul and jordan and at the moment when i need them both the most they arent there. so yeah the plan is that paul is picking me up after he gets off work and im going to go spend a couple days away from my parents. because i know if i stay here i am going to do something stupid not to them but to myself. the parentals dont know of this plan but they are just going to have to deal with it. if not then they must want to find me lying on the floor in a puddle of blood with a note saying i loved you all but i cant do this anymore. but hell who knows with my parents, eh? oh and yeah i still have to write my english paper! joy. k well enough suicide shit its just plain scaring me now..so yeah im going to go finish my english paper and listen to hard metal to get my mind off of things..peace. and god bless.
<3 Jill