Maybe perfection really does come through silence.....?
I know nobody reads this so it doesn't matter anyway but just to account to myself again..I've given up on everything that I've been trying to work out. The other day I found out that Phil doesn't know my name and he probably doesn't like me so there's no sense in trying there..then last night was just a whole big mess and I feel like I have no friends. I just feel like I am worth nothing and nobody would care if I wasn't around anymore so I've given up on everything and thinking about giving up on life since I screw up that too. There is no purpose for me here I don't know why God created me because I am a living disaster that cant avoid confrontation. I can't understand it, and having my mom scream at me every five seconds for doing absolutely nothing wrong helps too. I'm discusted with myself. So I'm done..this is probably just the beginning of many more entries like this...so fuck off.
As Always
As Always