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life is really confusing right now. i feel really conflicted on so many different levels. and i dont know how to articulate it or even who to articulate it to. everyone is so distant, not entirely physically. and livejournal has become the most impossible place for me to put any sort of true emotions to words because they become misconstrued or offensive or incoherent. why does my brain always have to put logic before emotions? Or maybe my lack of emotions in this situation should indicate that logically it is a mistake. See... incoherent, bumbling, nonsense. Life these days.
i have to get more tests run at the hospital this week. turns out i was right, and my endocrine problem is more complex than my endocrinologist, who evidently did not even read over my test results, previously thought. i have two papers to write this week. one should be pretty easy, the other not so much. i hate writing in first person. it makes it more difficult to hide behind my elevated diction and nondescript rambling in a preconceived format.
Why am i such a cold-hearted bitch? I could tell you, but you wouldn't like the answer.
i have to get more tests run at the hospital this week. turns out i was right, and my endocrine problem is more complex than my endocrinologist, who evidently did not even read over my test results, previously thought. i have two papers to write this week. one should be pretty easy, the other not so much. i hate writing in first person. it makes it more difficult to hide behind my elevated diction and nondescript rambling in a preconceived format.
Why am i such a cold-hearted bitch? I could tell you, but you wouldn't like the answer.