dumb ass

[breakingamemory]

my jaw hurts
been hurting for two weeks
this sucks

also today at work it occured to me that i may in fact be A DUMB ASS

if you act like a dumb ass and make unwise choices then yes you will be looked at and called a dumb ass

no one called me one yet

but i think i do and say alot of DUMB SHIT at work

people know that i'm weird
and clumsy and make mistakes

my boss said i was wierd today and is going to start calling me "columbine"

I think thats a bit over the top

but i've always been a social outcast and a kid who wore black

but i thought when you get older things change

they dont

ill always be the freak i was in growing up in adolecance

sometime i just want people to see me as normal

but they dont at work

im def the wierd guy

i was at my other jobs too

i just gotta stop talking so much and saying dumb things

i mean its cool with my boss

idk i guess its okay

i did say some dumb shit at lunch today with my boss and the meat cutter

but fuck it, im differnet than most people

i say what i think and i say what others are afraid to say

so yeah

i did do something dumb yesterday though

a bad choice

but it could turn out to be okay

so yeah

i just wish my jaw didnt hurt so much right now