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[breakingamemory]

there's this story in the bible where a rich man asked jesus what must he do to inherit the kingdom of God?
jesus said "keep the commanments"
the man says he's done this since he was a small child
then jesus said "sell all your possesions"
the man couldnt do it
and the man walked away sad

am i that man? is that the way i feel? must i get rid of certains cds, movies, and clothing??????

i suck
i dont want to
im torn between earthly things and God

store your treasure in heaven

God, i dont have all the answers but im trying to figure things out
yes im glad to be helped and also to help people

i just dont want to admit that earthly treasures is whats holding me back from growing in christ
maybe its not
maybe its something else
i need to figure this out
maybe its sex
maybe its drinking
i quit smoking Thank God

what the heck is holding me back

wow
religion
wow
relgious
i need to meet more people
i need to put on my thinking cap and sort things out
am i wrong
am i a bad person cuz i like this dark stuff?
probably not
but it doesnt help me grow
what the hell am i saying
who the hell am i becoming
give me something real!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!