random drunk thoughts

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i find myself irrisponsible
i find myself annoying, attatched, disposible
i find myself thinking of you
when i have no one else to cling to
i find myself plastic, molded and fake
i find myself giving less than i take
i find myself sad when i am awake
i find myself drunk, high and confused
i find myself being abused, used, in denial
i find myself disturbing, dirty, defiled
i find myself sad but i dont understand why
i find myself angry at every tear that i cry
i find myself stalling
i find myself unable
i found myself lying under a table
open bottle in hand
i found myself with my head buried in the sand
i find myself a coward
i find myself tired
i find myself turning into a liar
i find myself wishing i wasnt around
i find myself wishing i was someone i found