*Beyond My Reach*
Things got pretty messed up last night, it was the first time in me and Josh (Mouse) got into a fight like that. It was over some stupid girl that ended up liking him at his new school. It wouldn’t be so bad if that had happened here, but he’s in Jasper and I can’t do anything about it. I trust him then again I don’t, it’s not his fault that I don’t. I’ve just been lied to and fucked over in the past. It just hurt because I never thought he’d lie to me, doesn’t matter if it was a small one. Point is he lied to me…I was heart broken. I still am hurt about the whole situation. I’m going to see him today, I’m excited because I miss him. It’s hard to stay angry at someone that you haven’t seen in awhile, makes it more difficult…I never imagined he was capable of that shit, he could have fooled me. God I must really be a fucking moron! I’m not sure how I’m going to react when I see him. I mean what else is he lying to me about? I told him last night that I can no longer look at him the same, and that he tainted my future trust in him. Also I told him that he put so much doubt in my mind about him…about us. Yes it was a small innocent lie, but regardless it was a lie. Why do I always do this to myself? I hate myself for loving him, I can’t stay angry with him and it sucks! I ALWAYS forgive too easily, but I guess that’s what love does to you. I guess I’ll see how things go this afternoon. I love him and that’s the only thing keeping me from breaking up with him. He called me last night and said he was scared that what he did was going to be the cause of why we break up. I think he was crying…which is a lot coming from him. He almost refuses to show that kind of emotion. At least I know he cares that I’m upset, man my stomach is in knots. I pray and hope things will go well today…………
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
(Chorus:)
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above
(Chorus)
I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
(Chorus:)
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above
(Chorus)
I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said