whats going on
So i had an awesome evening with a nice guy the other nite. It was really good. Cuddled kissed blew him...and now for some reason hes not returning phone calls or anything...and i usually a hookup is A. opver quickly. B. no cuddling involved at least not with me...and C. I don't usually kiss them. ANd he was all about me staying the nite...but i had to go home. He was all about lying in his bed and looking up at plastic glow in teh dark stars becasue it was rainiy outside and frankly the mosquitos would have murdered us if we were outside. But had it not been raining he said he wanted to ly in the grass with me and look up at stars with his favorite star right next to him. ANd i even like didn't ask questions...which is SOOOOOOO hard for me cause all i wanna do is have answers...Whats this mean...are we dating...Am i yours? no didn't ask a thing. and i even made one very vague comment about how i like dcuddling with him and then he made the comment he loved it to and hoped we could do it again soon......SO THEN QWHY DID I GET HUNG UP ON? SO THEN WHY DID I GET AVOIDED? SO THEN WHAT DID I DO? if i was the ebst head he ever had( which he said and brageede about for 20 mins) then why am i being treated like shit? I don't get men. I ahven't liked a boy in forever. my new friends can't even remember the time I was passionate about a boy because they ahve never seen that vulnerable side of me. I wish that it could ahve worked. i want to fall in love so bad. Maybe thats my problem. Who knows. i am moving in with mar in like 32 hours. I am a little scared about that frankly. but all is well other then being trashed again for giving the milk away for free!