Wrong Side of the Bed
I woke up angry today.
Well, more like pissed off... just looking for things to get angry about. Why? I dunno. Nothing out of the ordinary as far as I can see.
And I found a couple (as is easy to do when one is in such a mood).
One thing it really highlighted is just how much animosity I have about work. Not my specific job... but having to work in general. Which sounds like I'm a lazy ass looking for a free ride, but that's not the case - I want my "job" to be "making a living for myself" in a much more direct way - growing and preserving my own fruits and vegetables, hunting my own meat, making my own clothes, generating my own electricity, making my own whatever-it-is-I need... and selling only enough of my time/effort/produce to be able to afford the few goods and raw materials that I cannot produce myself.
It feels like such a waste of my time to go do some job that doesn't benefit me AT ALL except to pay me money, which I then use to buy food and clothes and stuff - most of which I could make myself if I just had the time... but I don't, because I have to waste 45h/week (plus travel time) working on stuff that is of absolutely no benefit to myself, nor to society at large.
I'm imprisoned by the wage-slave cycle which I feel really only really benefits the very wealthy; has fucked up generations of people with artificially-created desire for goods and services, and with false promises of less work and more play and a better, more fulfilling life; and is so ingrained in our society that breaking out of that cycle and living outside of it - in any way - is difficult at best and nearly impossible at worst. Look how difficult it is just to have your own business instead of working for someone else - not just the added effort and risk of running that business, but also the difficulty of getting loans, or traveling abroad, and of dealing with the government in any way (ie. taxes, social assistance, etc.), because you're "self-employed" and not a wage-slave.
Fuck all of this. I can't wait to move to a farm and not be a part of it anymore.
Anyways, I had a reason for thinking I should post here - besides that little rant - and now I don't recall what it was. Hmm.
Oh well.
B.
Well, more like pissed off... just looking for things to get angry about. Why? I dunno. Nothing out of the ordinary as far as I can see.
And I found a couple (as is easy to do when one is in such a mood).
One thing it really highlighted is just how much animosity I have about work. Not my specific job... but having to work in general. Which sounds like I'm a lazy ass looking for a free ride, but that's not the case - I want my "job" to be "making a living for myself" in a much more direct way - growing and preserving my own fruits and vegetables, hunting my own meat, making my own clothes, generating my own electricity, making my own whatever-it-is-I need... and selling only enough of my time/effort/produce to be able to afford the few goods and raw materials that I cannot produce myself.
It feels like such a waste of my time to go do some job that doesn't benefit me AT ALL except to pay me money, which I then use to buy food and clothes and stuff - most of which I could make myself if I just had the time... but I don't, because I have to waste 45h/week (plus travel time) working on stuff that is of absolutely no benefit to myself, nor to society at large.
I'm imprisoned by the wage-slave cycle which I feel really only really benefits the very wealthy; has fucked up generations of people with artificially-created desire for goods and services, and with false promises of less work and more play and a better, more fulfilling life; and is so ingrained in our society that breaking out of that cycle and living outside of it - in any way - is difficult at best and nearly impossible at worst. Look how difficult it is just to have your own business instead of working for someone else - not just the added effort and risk of running that business, but also the difficulty of getting loans, or traveling abroad, and of dealing with the government in any way (ie. taxes, social assistance, etc.), because you're "self-employed" and not a wage-slave.
Fuck all of this. I can't wait to move to a farm and not be a part of it anymore.
Anyways, I had a reason for thinking I should post here - besides that little rant - and now I don't recall what it was. Hmm.
Oh well.
B.