yada
I've been so anxious lately worrying about this whole separation process. It always seems like everyday i spend here is another chance for things to go wrong and leave me trapped where I am. I think I'm being stupid and unreasonable here, but I really don't trust the military anymore to just let me go with a clean slate. It feels like they're up to something that i don't know about, and i seriously doubt they are...I'm only paranoid. Heather is having a bad day due to her ticket situation, and it's wierd to just hear her being negative about things. It's not a big deal, it hardly affects me, but when she's sad, angry, or upset, it makes me feel kind of shitty too. I'm almost always sad or upset about something, and when i call her she makes me feel so much better about things. She calms me down and points me in the right direction, but when she has her bad days like i do, I start feeling like there's nothing I can say to make her feel better, cuz after-all, I'm not a very uplifting person. I wish I could be a little more supporting of her though. I feel kind of guilty for making her tend to me all the time, when I have nothing positive to say to her. And also, all the rest of the time, all i talk about is sex and things of that nature. Nothing she really wants to hear. I seriously need to learn to grow up, cuz I tend to annoy everybody with that shit. Not just her.