*TRIGGER* E,D,, paranoia
Boy did I mess myself up doing that.
I was taking Xenadrine, and also went back on the Prozac and thyroid pills because they kill my appetite. Well, they killed it all right.....but that combination of chemicals also made me what I would call psychotic. I was horribly depressed, delusional, paranoid.....and for the first time in my life, I actually thought about killing people. The first two were my mom and Rusty. Then, it was the girls I went to school with......they make up what I call the 'committee' in my head, and I got to thinking that if I hunted them down and killed them, I would finally shut the committee up..
Well, I didn't kill anybody, and now I feel like myself again. I'm not taking diet pills, and I'm also not taking Prozac or thyroid pills. I'm certainly not thinking of trying to kill anybody, especially not my husband or my mother....that was so completely unlike me. It's scary what chemicals can do to one's brain.
I was taking Xenadrine, and also went back on the Prozac and thyroid pills because they kill my appetite. Well, they killed it all right.....but that combination of chemicals also made me what I would call psychotic. I was horribly depressed, delusional, paranoid.....and for the first time in my life, I actually thought about killing people. The first two were my mom and Rusty. Then, it was the girls I went to school with......they make up what I call the 'committee' in my head, and I got to thinking that if I hunted them down and killed them, I would finally shut the committee up..
Well, I didn't kill anybody, and now I feel like myself again. I'm not taking diet pills, and I'm also not taking Prozac or thyroid pills. I'm certainly not thinking of trying to kill anybody, especially not my husband or my mother....that was so completely unlike me. It's scary what chemicals can do to one's brain.