When I hit rock bottom, the only place I had to go was up...
So Lately I have been looking for a place for us to move to. Which is harder than I thought. Most places have income restrictions and I "make too much", what kind of shit is that. I cant live somewhere because I have a good well paying job. Bull shit. But whatever. I think I found the place though. Nothing extravagant but it is our first place on our own, and its pretty much perfect. All I really have to do is find somewhere to live now, I have just about everything I need to put into a place. So I hope everything goes over clear and it will be alright. I love everything that I have bought. I have spent about $500 dollars, maybe a little less and have gotten everything you need to have a place of your own. Im pretty impressed with myself. "
So lately things have been going pretty good, really better than ever since this year began. Work is going good, or so I think, what they thing could vary. Family stuff is going good too, they are somewhat excired for me, but I know deep down my mom isnt ready for it. The only thing that really isnt like I wish it was is things with my friends. But i guess it just happens. We are all on different pages in their lives. I mean they have kids, or just want to party, or are just pissed at me for no logical reason. i'm sorry I work most of the time and afterwards Im tired, but anytime I can I try to get ahold of them, but that is never good enough for anyone. I cant help it that you work in grocery stores and I dont. But who am I to say. Its probably some ridiculous reason they are mad at me and dont speak to me anymore. But I tried and tried and now I have plenty of other things to worry about.
Things with Scott and I are so great. I really dont even know what else I could say to show it. I have never had someone love me the way be does, I have never had someone make me laugh as easily as he does, he brightens up my day with just one look at his face, and he doesnt even know it. There are lots of things that he doesnt know. But I suppose that in some ways he has to know, because he always knows what to do or say to make me feel better when Im down or just to make me feel so special. He does some of the cutest things, at night when we are laying in bed about to fall asleep he usually falls asleep before me, and I put my arm around him and kiss him on his forhead and then his cheek and then this nose, and he gets this slight smile on his face, it is the cutest thing. I love that I can be my absolute self around him, although I do like things that he doesnt, he doesnt want me to change or anything like that. Last night the AFC championship game was on between the Colts and Patriots. And he doesnt like football, so I went to the computer to look up the score and I came back and told him it was tied with 10 minutes to go. He was like baby if you want to watch it we can. I was suprised cause he really isnt interested in it at all really, and he said yes, I love you enough to watch football with you. I was suprised. He really is different, he is so his own person, and no one comes close to him and the way he makes me feel. No wonder I fell in love with him.
So last week I applied for DBCC, its a start, at least I did it. Now when I start is a different story but everyone was suprised I did that so far. They sent me a letter and accepted me already, so thats pretty cool. Things are going well like I said.
I cant wait to move into my own place, its been so exciting for me these past three weeks. Gosh I cant wait. Its a totally new section to my life, and Im so glad to be sharing it with Scott and his family, besides my family they are all I have. And really I love them so much too.
I have been at work since 8 its 10:40 now, I have already finished all my work so far today, Lynn isnt here so I have no one to really talk to. Im tired as hell, and the red bull isnt very effective today. I think I might go home and sleep for an hour for lunch today. Something at least. I either need to pull some magic energy out of my ass or something. Damn a B12 shot would work wonders right now. Ah ha. Well Im off to find something else to do with my wonderful tiredness self.
Goodday...
So lately things have been going pretty good, really better than ever since this year began. Work is going good, or so I think, what they thing could vary. Family stuff is going good too, they are somewhat excired for me, but I know deep down my mom isnt ready for it. The only thing that really isnt like I wish it was is things with my friends. But i guess it just happens. We are all on different pages in their lives. I mean they have kids, or just want to party, or are just pissed at me for no logical reason. i'm sorry I work most of the time and afterwards Im tired, but anytime I can I try to get ahold of them, but that is never good enough for anyone. I cant help it that you work in grocery stores and I dont. But who am I to say. Its probably some ridiculous reason they are mad at me and dont speak to me anymore. But I tried and tried and now I have plenty of other things to worry about.
Things with Scott and I are so great. I really dont even know what else I could say to show it. I have never had someone love me the way be does, I have never had someone make me laugh as easily as he does, he brightens up my day with just one look at his face, and he doesnt even know it. There are lots of things that he doesnt know. But I suppose that in some ways he has to know, because he always knows what to do or say to make me feel better when Im down or just to make me feel so special. He does some of the cutest things, at night when we are laying in bed about to fall asleep he usually falls asleep before me, and I put my arm around him and kiss him on his forhead and then his cheek and then this nose, and he gets this slight smile on his face, it is the cutest thing. I love that I can be my absolute self around him, although I do like things that he doesnt, he doesnt want me to change or anything like that. Last night the AFC championship game was on between the Colts and Patriots. And he doesnt like football, so I went to the computer to look up the score and I came back and told him it was tied with 10 minutes to go. He was like baby if you want to watch it we can. I was suprised cause he really isnt interested in it at all really, and he said yes, I love you enough to watch football with you. I was suprised. He really is different, he is so his own person, and no one comes close to him and the way he makes me feel. No wonder I fell in love with him.
So last week I applied for DBCC, its a start, at least I did it. Now when I start is a different story but everyone was suprised I did that so far. They sent me a letter and accepted me already, so thats pretty cool. Things are going well like I said.
I cant wait to move into my own place, its been so exciting for me these past three weeks. Gosh I cant wait. Its a totally new section to my life, and Im so glad to be sharing it with Scott and his family, besides my family they are all I have. And really I love them so much too.
I have been at work since 8 its 10:40 now, I have already finished all my work so far today, Lynn isnt here so I have no one to really talk to. Im tired as hell, and the red bull isnt very effective today. I think I might go home and sleep for an hour for lunch today. Something at least. I either need to pull some magic energy out of my ass or something. Damn a B12 shot would work wonders right now. Ah ha. Well Im off to find something else to do with my wonderful tiredness self.
Goodday...