theres nothing we can do
Its been a week since ive been in Miami. It weird not living with Nick after being so used to it. I feel like im part of a pair but my other half is just separated from me and i have to live like that.it sucks after being used to something for so long but i think its probably best..for now at least. I have to stop being dependent on people not just him. I need to focus on ME. and i have to live for me. So right now i've been of course sad but happy at the same time because I'm excited. My life's changed and even though im going to have my weak moments i know im going to have a lot of fun and i have a lot of things on my to do list...i need to get working on that. Its just kinda hard because im sick and ive been sick. Nicks sick too..Bostons icy weather got us..even though it was really hot there before i left...god i hate the heat...i only like it if im about to get in a body of water....shallow of course...or else ill drown. I need to learn how to swim. I'm listening to Solange's version of the Dirty Projectors song still is the move...i like both versions. This ones more Erykah Baduish...maybe its because it has the same background as that paper bag lady song...it reminds me of stonegroove. By the way i had to look up^ name cuz of course i knew it wasnt going to be spelled Erica lol...shes cooler than that. Whatever i was saying i like both versions a lot. Im so excited I have a new itunes now so i can start fresh and actually have good music on it. My old itunes was so embarrassing...it just had a bunch of songs on it that made me dance a little but nothing that touched me emotionally...i had good stuff on it too but hardly. To clarify i could still be moved emotionally by a song that makes me dance...not in a way that makes me cry but whatever...today im going to stonegroove for the first time since nick left that should be funnnnn i wonder if its going to make me sad...it shouldnt im going with lory and cindy my banddddd. Listening to Abebisi shank right now..it makes me want to set up my drums right now and play..which is what im going o have to do in a bit anyway..practice today should be fucking fun lol.we havent practiced since our awesome show at vagabond...it was awesome.
lets see i went to vaga and bar friday..blew my mind and made me realized how much i fucking love dancing again and why havent i been doing this more often.
and since then my license has been suspended this whole time so friends have just chilled with me at my house..thats basically it..ive been pretty happy with that though...nights get a little sad but besides that its cool...its bearable.
alright imma go see what i actually have to do right now im so lazy i havent even thought about it how tonights going to work...shower before or after practice? do i wash my hair? do i fight my mom and try to see if she'l let us practice indoors? all these important questions and more answered when I come back. Stay tuned.
God im stupid. lol
lets see i went to vaga and bar friday..blew my mind and made me realized how much i fucking love dancing again and why havent i been doing this more often.
and since then my license has been suspended this whole time so friends have just chilled with me at my house..thats basically it..ive been pretty happy with that though...nights get a little sad but besides that its cool...its bearable.
alright imma go see what i actually have to do right now im so lazy i havent even thought about it how tonights going to work...shower before or after practice? do i wash my hair? do i fight my mom and try to see if she'l let us practice indoors? all these important questions and more answered when I come back. Stay tuned.
God im stupid. lol