My lame thoughts lol..im always content or calm in my lj moods...
I was feeling kinda good and content with my situation right now so i wanted to write about it in my lj. Im trying to keep lj alive..Im a little distracted by sex and the city right now..samantha is in love for the first time but she just found out his package was tiny..pretty intense stuff...now its getting a little sad because Carrie didnt want to go on the trip with Big. Anyway so yeah...I'm in boston ,in nicks apartment..he's breaking it down on his bass..now he just looked at me while playing and he's like knocking on it too..it's cute. Im not really caring how i write right now because im pretty sure im going to post this up as private but I might not...
Today I woke up at 2 ish because the fire alarm in this building went off...and then my mom called -_- but i guess its better so I can actually be tired enough tonight to sleep before 6am. I need a more normal sleep schedule.
George Lopez isn't funny..i have the show on right now and I'm really confused as to why i haven't changed it yet...
im too lazy...god he's really not funny.
Im so pissed at my hair..my white hair doesn't cooperate with anything..I always look bad...and its boring as fuhh...its so damn boring
I cant believe Im going to stay here for 2 more weeks...but when i really think about it i think its too soon and it makes me so saaaaaadd
something tells me im going to have really sad journal entries in the future....looking forward to that.
i shouldve studied music..i shouldve started young..i started at like 19..with the czechs ..if iwouldve stuck with it at 14 i wouldve been a great drummer by now. I didnt learn from anyone how to play the drums , I just sat down and played. I had someone place my hand on the highhat and my other hand on the snare and he sang me a beat and i did it...Im not saying that this is in anyway impressive because its probably not. I'm not saying im a prodigy or anything do not get that idea of me you fucking judgmental journal...yeah i think im going to post this on public. ...But yeah Im just saying it came more natural than at least everyone else I know thats not a really good drummer now...im sure they were natural at it too.
i wonder how long im going to keep this live journal for..ive had it since i was 14..im 21 now..so thats cool lol
i guess i really have nothing to say...oh well my band
I cant waitttt to practice with them again and play our new song..im sure i mentioned that in my last post. Im thinking of getting a blog cuz it looked really cute. Cindy and Crystal have ones and they look nice..so i might ditch lj...maybe.
i feel like i was better before at writing on this thing.i was more creative and stupid but whatever i think its funny now still. Now i dont write cuz im a little scared of being judged. Should i put this back on private..let see how i feel at the end of it. Man ...im having fun with nick..at least today lol. He's like playing some part right now that hes working on it and he's trying to explain to me why its a bit hard and my advice to him was "Just do it." I like that to him thats an acceptable answer. He completely just moved on and kept playing. Im a bit hazy wazy.
Ive smoked a cigarette every day ive been here in boston and maybe a few days I smoked like 3 a day but whatever it seemed to have caught up to me. Nick and I were on the stoop when someone from his building , this guy we've met before sits down next to us. They were talking the whole time and as they were i was smoking cigarettes. i had nothing to say in their conversation. " what teacher do you have ? " , " I have blah blah..". So whatever I was just smoking and even before that guy Tyler..sometimes i feel like his name is jason buts it tyler. Before he came along i was already starting to feel sick of the cigarettes. The guy invited us to hang at his 1bedroom 1living room. It was really nice looking. its actually felt like a home especially his room with the sheet on his wall and the lighting ...I don't know it made me realize we can make nicks place look better. Nicks room cool and he so far has 3 cool posters and everything but its lacking ...it could be better. So back at tylers place they continued talking as i played call of duty. I was feeling light headed from the cigs and every time i died in the game...so like ever 2 seconds my heart felt like it was going faster. I almost fainted. I felt my body go numb i took off my shoes in this kids house together with my socks..its ok though i have nice feet so i don't think anyone minded..strangely this is exactly what i thought for a brief second as i was freaking out. I grabbed a bunch of ice and rubbed it behind my neck. It was embarrassing .but the guy was nice he suggested holding the cat they had to relax me and it completely worked..i tried focussing on that cat so hard so I wouldn't think of my situation and how i was about to faint and just panic more and eventually faint. after that we left came back here and i just relaxed. i felt a lot better I just needed to lie down.
I always almost faint. By the way the cigarettes we smoke are the black and mild ones i dont know anything about cigarettes but apparently those arent really like real cigarettes ..not sure what it is but theres a difference which is why I started smoking them but then i heard it was like a regular cigarette..so i dont know i didnt smoke any today so thats good lol. This was only going to be a boston thing. Im not planning on going back to miami as a smoker. Whatever this is boring no one wants to hear about my trying cigarettes for the first time at 21 story..im so lame.
whatevsss im going to end this cuz its way too long. It was fun writing I probably wont know what to do after this..probably eat lol..but yeah ill post again soon....posting this public..no one has an lj anyway lol =P
Today I woke up at 2 ish because the fire alarm in this building went off...and then my mom called -_- but i guess its better so I can actually be tired enough tonight to sleep before 6am. I need a more normal sleep schedule.
George Lopez isn't funny..i have the show on right now and I'm really confused as to why i haven't changed it yet...
im too lazy...god he's really not funny.
Im so pissed at my hair..my white hair doesn't cooperate with anything..I always look bad...and its boring as fuhh...its so damn boring
I cant believe Im going to stay here for 2 more weeks...but when i really think about it i think its too soon and it makes me so saaaaaadd
something tells me im going to have really sad journal entries in the future....looking forward to that.
i shouldve studied music..i shouldve started young..i started at like 19..with the czechs ..if iwouldve stuck with it at 14 i wouldve been a great drummer by now. I didnt learn from anyone how to play the drums , I just sat down and played. I had someone place my hand on the highhat and my other hand on the snare and he sang me a beat and i did it...Im not saying that this is in anyway impressive because its probably not. I'm not saying im a prodigy or anything do not get that idea of me you fucking judgmental journal...yeah i think im going to post this on public. ...But yeah Im just saying it came more natural than at least everyone else I know thats not a really good drummer now...im sure they were natural at it too.
i wonder how long im going to keep this live journal for..ive had it since i was 14..im 21 now..so thats cool lol
i guess i really have nothing to say...oh well my band
I cant waitttt to practice with them again and play our new song..im sure i mentioned that in my last post. Im thinking of getting a blog cuz it looked really cute. Cindy and Crystal have ones and they look nice..so i might ditch lj...maybe.
i feel like i was better before at writing on this thing.i was more creative and stupid but whatever i think its funny now still. Now i dont write cuz im a little scared of being judged. Should i put this back on private..let see how i feel at the end of it. Man ...im having fun with nick..at least today lol. He's like playing some part right now that hes working on it and he's trying to explain to me why its a bit hard and my advice to him was "Just do it." I like that to him thats an acceptable answer. He completely just moved on and kept playing. Im a bit hazy wazy.
Ive smoked a cigarette every day ive been here in boston and maybe a few days I smoked like 3 a day but whatever it seemed to have caught up to me. Nick and I were on the stoop when someone from his building , this guy we've met before sits down next to us. They were talking the whole time and as they were i was smoking cigarettes. i had nothing to say in their conversation. " what teacher do you have ? " , " I have blah blah..". So whatever I was just smoking and even before that guy Tyler..sometimes i feel like his name is jason buts it tyler. Before he came along i was already starting to feel sick of the cigarettes. The guy invited us to hang at his 1bedroom 1living room. It was really nice looking. its actually felt like a home especially his room with the sheet on his wall and the lighting ...I don't know it made me realize we can make nicks place look better. Nicks room cool and he so far has 3 cool posters and everything but its lacking ...it could be better. So back at tylers place they continued talking as i played call of duty. I was feeling light headed from the cigs and every time i died in the game...so like ever 2 seconds my heart felt like it was going faster. I almost fainted. I felt my body go numb i took off my shoes in this kids house together with my socks..its ok though i have nice feet so i don't think anyone minded..strangely this is exactly what i thought for a brief second as i was freaking out. I grabbed a bunch of ice and rubbed it behind my neck. It was embarrassing .but the guy was nice he suggested holding the cat they had to relax me and it completely worked..i tried focussing on that cat so hard so I wouldn't think of my situation and how i was about to faint and just panic more and eventually faint. after that we left came back here and i just relaxed. i felt a lot better I just needed to lie down.
I always almost faint. By the way the cigarettes we smoke are the black and mild ones i dont know anything about cigarettes but apparently those arent really like real cigarettes ..not sure what it is but theres a difference which is why I started smoking them but then i heard it was like a regular cigarette..so i dont know i didnt smoke any today so thats good lol. This was only going to be a boston thing. Im not planning on going back to miami as a smoker. Whatever this is boring no one wants to hear about my trying cigarettes for the first time at 21 story..im so lame.
whatevsss im going to end this cuz its way too long. It was fun writing I probably wont know what to do after this..probably eat lol..but yeah ill post again soon....posting this public..no one has an lj anyway lol =P