real update
Okay...excitement about scholarship over...jsut really happy about it now. I've had a pretty good couple weeks. Problems with friends have come up -- Some resolved others swept under the rug at least until after finals and even others just appearing out of "no where" (say that because they're there but don't manifest often.) That's the way it goes. I'm pretty peaceful right now. Nothing has really upset me in a while. I've been annoyed and frustrated, but I consider those to be minor emotions and not really that important.
Example of chilled mood:
-Hell week last week...not awful but not wonderful (Actually rather funny because I couldn't seem to get to my World Civ class :)
-Got Centre for GSP RA, eh. last choice, but I'll live
-Had to miss our formal for the retreat...sucks but oh well, and glad that those who went had fun
-finals this week...not huge amounts of fun, but not horrible.
-a friend got annoyed/bothered by me on sunday. but won't tell me exactly why. frustrating, but again, I can't change it and don't feel like getting bent out of shape about it.
-haven't heard from James or Victor in a while...wonder what they're up to and want to hear from them, but I can't change the situation so oh well
-got a full tuition scholarship for next year and got excited to start, but now am relatively chilled. happy but havne't been beaming since a few hours after I found out
I'm not usually this chilled. Pretty much anything can set me off most of the time (weakness of mine), but these last couple weeks (aside from excitement yesterdy that was TOTALLY understandable) I really haven't had big overblown emotions.
I'm not saying I haven't been happy. I have been. I've gotten excited and what not. But no bad swings. kinda weird but nice. I don't really like being too mellow though, so...
I doubt that it will stick for a while, but it may...never know...it's lasted for a couple weeks now.
I think it might be just that my body is too exhausted to deal with big emotions. that's probably it. because I have been rather exhausted recently.
Anyway. Not much going on...well actually a lot is, but it doesn't feel like it because of this weird mellow mood. eh.
I think this is a real update...not sure...oh well. close enough.
:)
Example of chilled mood:
-Hell week last week...not awful but not wonderful (Actually rather funny because I couldn't seem to get to my World Civ class :)
-Got Centre for GSP RA, eh. last choice, but I'll live
-Had to miss our formal for the retreat...sucks but oh well, and glad that those who went had fun
-finals this week...not huge amounts of fun, but not horrible.
-a friend got annoyed/bothered by me on sunday. but won't tell me exactly why. frustrating, but again, I can't change it and don't feel like getting bent out of shape about it.
-haven't heard from James or Victor in a while...wonder what they're up to and want to hear from them, but I can't change the situation so oh well
-got a full tuition scholarship for next year and got excited to start, but now am relatively chilled. happy but havne't been beaming since a few hours after I found out
I'm not usually this chilled. Pretty much anything can set me off most of the time (weakness of mine), but these last couple weeks (aside from excitement yesterdy that was TOTALLY understandable) I really haven't had big overblown emotions.
I'm not saying I haven't been happy. I have been. I've gotten excited and what not. But no bad swings. kinda weird but nice. I don't really like being too mellow though, so...
I doubt that it will stick for a while, but it may...never know...it's lasted for a couple weeks now.
I think it might be just that my body is too exhausted to deal with big emotions. that's probably it. because I have been rather exhausted recently.
Anyway. Not much going on...well actually a lot is, but it doesn't feel like it because of this weird mellow mood. eh.
I think this is a real update...not sure...oh well. close enough.
:)