I've Got 20 Minutes...
More like 19 now. Freakin slow ass comp.
"It'll pass...it'll pass..." Well what if it doesnt...? Then what? People take a lot things for granted when others say things like..."Oh I don't feel loved" or "I dont think I will ever (insert comment)" or "I just wanna (insert comment here)". "It'll pass"...or they will bust you off with something like..."Well I dont know what else to say". Okay...maybe you have said all that you could have to help this person out...but like I mean...dont just give up because you feel tired or something or at a lost for words. Be there for that person. If you have nothing else to say...hear them out. Continue to offer as much as you can for that person. And when you feel that you they have finished with whatever they needed to get off of their chest...check up on them later on...to see if they are alright. But dont think that your mission is accomplished...because as soon as you hang up or leave to go home...its going to start up again. And this time they wont have anyone there, not unless they decide to call you again, which they may not.
Ive tried to be that for everyone who I have been and are currently friends with now. But I feel that the hand that I reach out with is always neglected. Ive been told that I am more like that person that people run to for them to feel happy. I love it...but dont think that I am just that. A comic relief to put it so blunty. I am feel that I am more than that. I always tell my friends that if there is ANYTHING that I can do to help them with whether it be talking or listening or whatever...let me know. But like...for some odd reason...I some how end up missing the memo. It kills me too to hear later on for that person to say..."Oh well there was no one for me to run to to talk with", when I was clearly a phone call away. It makes me feel like I have failed as a friend to whomever is in need of something like a shoulder to cry on or what have you. And it really kills me when I am just brushed to the side like...I cant help with anything. I like I dont qualify at all...being all like: (insert emotion) "Oh well, this that and the third is what I am (insert) with and you know how it feels to be (insert), right? Thanks but no thanks." It's not that I am being nosy. Not at all. I noticed that something is bother that person or if I dont notice, they bring it up. So like...they are in need of someone to talk to. Right? And if they didnt want me to help them then why did they bring it up? It makes me feel like that person is need of someone and I am trying my best to help them with whatever it is that they need.
But of course...there are certain things that that I have to realize too...people have that ONE particular person that they can run to besides me. Simply because they have always confided everything to this person and therefore feel more comfortable with them. But all I am saying is that...if that person isnt there and you REALLY need someone...Im here. Whether it be on the phone or in person...Im here. Anytime you wanna call, call. Anytime you wanna talk, call and I will try my best be there. But dont ever think that there's no other option after the one and only one that you have isnt available. No matter how personal, I am a VERY OPEN MINDED PERSON. Im very confidential with what that person wants to talk about. I do not judge. If I was to pass judgement on you then I would be TOTALLY WRONG for doing so and I shouldnt even deserve to be considered a friend. Just dont feel like there is no one else, because there is.
Meh...Im tired and "ish". Just a little something that has been bugging me for a bit...so until next time folks...
-Brace yourself like overbite-
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