Both of you need to come and talk to me - the sooner the better.
so if anyone read yesterday and thought i was feeling stressed, its cuz i was. and today it got worse. more financial troubles, and then the worst email ive ever read.
so i emailed my nutrition teacher wondering why my grade for the last exam wasnt posted, and why jordans wasnt either. she sent an email back to me saying that she wanted to see us. and all of a sudden, i saw my whole life flash before my eyes. i knew immediately that being caught cheating, whether i did it or not, would pretty much end my college career. i would be kicked out of uconn and no school would accept me as a transfer cuz no one wants the kid that cheated. all of my hard work would have been ruined. and i was feeling pretty good about today after getting another perfect grade on another speech. but that would have been worthless too. after getting to her office and hearing her say those words, i realized there has to be a God and he has to really love my mother and listen to her prayers because he saved my ass. and jordans. im so grateful yet so pissed. i dont know how to feel.
recently, ive been feeling really sick before going to bed. like i feel like im physically going to just vomit in complete disgust of my life. ive never felt so stressed, felt so uncomfortable with my surroundings, had lower self esteem, or ever dsakfllkdasjfjkhdskajghk in my whole life. this is my breaking point. and i somehow have to pull together, because i need to get a 100 on my math exam on friday in order to get an A in the class, which i know i can do, and i have every intention of doing it. its just that now i have to also take another nutrition exam three hours after that math one.
i over-exaggerate., i know the world isnt coming to an end, or at least mine isnt. ive just never felt so vulnerable before. and all these issues with money lately really have taken their toll. i dont know what to do. but i guess i'll figure something out. i always do.
somebody just shoot me.
so i emailed my nutrition teacher wondering why my grade for the last exam wasnt posted, and why jordans wasnt either. she sent an email back to me saying that she wanted to see us. and all of a sudden, i saw my whole life flash before my eyes. i knew immediately that being caught cheating, whether i did it or not, would pretty much end my college career. i would be kicked out of uconn and no school would accept me as a transfer cuz no one wants the kid that cheated. all of my hard work would have been ruined. and i was feeling pretty good about today after getting another perfect grade on another speech. but that would have been worthless too. after getting to her office and hearing her say those words, i realized there has to be a God and he has to really love my mother and listen to her prayers because he saved my ass. and jordans. im so grateful yet so pissed. i dont know how to feel.
recently, ive been feeling really sick before going to bed. like i feel like im physically going to just vomit in complete disgust of my life. ive never felt so stressed, felt so uncomfortable with my surroundings, had lower self esteem, or ever dsakfllkdasjfjkhdskajghk in my whole life. this is my breaking point. and i somehow have to pull together, because i need to get a 100 on my math exam on friday in order to get an A in the class, which i know i can do, and i have every intention of doing it. its just that now i have to also take another nutrition exam three hours after that math one.
i over-exaggerate., i know the world isnt coming to an end, or at least mine isnt. ive just never felt so vulnerable before. and all these issues with money lately really have taken their toll. i dont know what to do. but i guess i'll figure something out. i always do.
somebody just shoot me.