I could make this obvoius and you could deny me all in one breath
and I don't think that you know what you've been missing.
I struggle so much and go running back to your grace. I thought I knew how life was going to turn out and everything would be fine but its not. Everyday I'm struggle to forget about her. Everyday its hard not to send a text or make a call. Maybe her and I aren't meant to be but I waited 20 years to be that intimate w/someone and right now I just don't know how to cope with the fact that after everything it still does mean a lot. I did immature things and tried to show that I could bebetter then that..........sometimes we don't always get another chance. Its really hard to look back and see that I have lost her, but I don't know what is or isn't meant to be.
I also do not enjoy the feeling that Tina will never talk to me again. I'm a mess and I feel like I'm bringing casualties down with me. I know christina likes me A LOT, but right now I just cant get into anything serious. It's not her or her daughter, its me and my feelings. I feel like im searching for something mor eout there but always finding nothing.
Amanda mentioned feeling the same way, I try to tell her that she can always turn to God and look for giudance even though it may not seem to come I do konw tha teventually it will. I might be playing with The Alibi.......maybe it will put a new outlook on things
Its late, im tired and need OJ.
I struggle so much and go running back to your grace. I thought I knew how life was going to turn out and everything would be fine but its not. Everyday I'm struggle to forget about her. Everyday its hard not to send a text or make a call. Maybe her and I aren't meant to be but I waited 20 years to be that intimate w/someone and right now I just don't know how to cope with the fact that after everything it still does mean a lot. I did immature things and tried to show that I could bebetter then that..........sometimes we don't always get another chance. Its really hard to look back and see that I have lost her, but I don't know what is or isn't meant to be.
I also do not enjoy the feeling that Tina will never talk to me again. I'm a mess and I feel like I'm bringing casualties down with me. I know christina likes me A LOT, but right now I just cant get into anything serious. It's not her or her daughter, its me and my feelings. I feel like im searching for something mor eout there but always finding nothing.
Amanda mentioned feeling the same way, I try to tell her that she can always turn to God and look for giudance even though it may not seem to come I do konw tha teventually it will. I might be playing with The Alibi.......maybe it will put a new outlook on things
Its late, im tired and need OJ.