What the hell

[br0k3nbytim3]

This weekend was really lousy. I went into it with high hopes and I came out with nothing but a fucking bag full of dry wishes. Rock n Bowl was really crappy this week nothing could really pick me up because everything seemed to be on my whole..10 Things Ill Never Have List. So needless to say I was the "little" emo boy that had to be around during

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[optixjuggalo]

Alright not only is that really fucked up
But that is really fucked up!
I am most Certainly not a man Whore Pat
and yeah Jackie was latin with me
where was she going to lay
You had your balankets wraped all around you
and moved every 5 mins
shit I didn't ask her to lay there
Goddamnit Pat
Remember I told you when I was in Kentucky that
I saw the hatred in your eyes even if you didn't
I was right
It all started with Cassie didn't it?
what is the deal man?
am I not supposed to bed happy or something?
ytou think I ask for this shit?
cuz I don't
and Gettin pissed ain't my fault either
I do eveything in my power to not make you jealous
try to make you feel good, importan, do what freinds are supposed to
we were awake
we haden't even went to sleep yet
so why not say something to us?
or at least me
no instead you put this shit on LJ that I am a manWhore??????????
what is that shit?
You know better then most howmuch I only want one girl
you have been there have you not
when I cry about her?
When I risk everything Just to get her back?
but no
look how quickly you turn your back on me and make me feel like a peice of shit!
So once again My number one thing on my "list of things I'll never have"
Is a freind who understands
ahwell
if I am so bad just tell me
and I will be out of your house asap
I am not here to make you feel worse PAT
I am here cuz I thought that you injoyed my companie
but like I said if that has changed just let me know
Sorry Man
didn't know I was such a burden
-Timothy

Im sorry

[br0k3nbytim3]

Dude, that was a harsh entry and I apologize. Mainly because I dunno what I was expecting, but when jackie called I dunno, I sorta felt special that someone was relying on me. Believe me when I say I enjoy your company dude, the only other person that the room needs is keith. It was a spiteful entry, and I'm deeply sorry. Im stressed about driving today, Also that was at 2:30am, also Im begining to think that im bi-polar because my mood changes to often and too radically. But, who knows.

Most of my problem lies in that I have been alone since I was a kid, friends can only go so far. Sometimes I get beyond myself and forget that they are still there. But, I have alot of agonizing inner pain thats beyond anything caused by a girl or anger, and I dont now how to heal it, venting some of it only hurts my friends, and bros, and everyone around me, Im just tired of bearing it on my heart. I know you know that pain, but yours is because of love for someone, I dont know where mine comes from.

Sorry
~Pat