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i miss tim so much, and i can't help but think he's mad at me...yesterday when i was talking to him he was SO distant, and no matter how much i asked if he was okay he always said yeah and if he was upset with me he always said no...
maybe i'm paranoid...he went to california, which he wasn't looking forward to at all, and it's cuz he didn't wanna be away from me for a week, and that may be why he was in a bad mood, but i would think i would be the last person he would want to alienate...ugh. o well...i'll just see what happens...he told me he would call me tonite, and i'm gonna hold strong to that, and not call him...i swear it seems like i ALWAYS call him...o well...
he always tells me how much he loves and needs me and such, but i can't help but wonder if i'm putting in a lot more than he is...
but then...
i think that he does sweet things for me, like take me to rain forest cafe...so i dont want him to think i'm ungrateful or love him less...it's just my insecurities playing into effect again...ugh i'm just so confused about it...
he always tells me about how hurt he would be if i ever cheated on him, so it makes me want to do something to reassure him that i love him, and would NEVER cheat on him...so it's been 2 months, so does n e one think it would be dumb to get a little promise ring, just a small white gold one, not too expensive but just so that whenever he's feeling insecure about me cheating, or whatever, he can look down and know that i'm always gonna be there for him? hmm i've pondered this for a couple days...
xoxo
lyn
maybe i'm paranoid...he went to california, which he wasn't looking forward to at all, and it's cuz he didn't wanna be away from me for a week, and that may be why he was in a bad mood, but i would think i would be the last person he would want to alienate...ugh. o well...i'll just see what happens...he told me he would call me tonite, and i'm gonna hold strong to that, and not call him...i swear it seems like i ALWAYS call him...o well...
he always tells me how much he loves and needs me and such, but i can't help but wonder if i'm putting in a lot more than he is...
but then...
i think that he does sweet things for me, like take me to rain forest cafe...so i dont want him to think i'm ungrateful or love him less...it's just my insecurities playing into effect again...ugh i'm just so confused about it...
he always tells me about how hurt he would be if i ever cheated on him, so it makes me want to do something to reassure him that i love him, and would NEVER cheat on him...so it's been 2 months, so does n e one think it would be dumb to get a little promise ring, just a small white gold one, not too expensive but just so that whenever he's feeling insecure about me cheating, or whatever, he can look down and know that i'm always gonna be there for him? hmm i've pondered this for a couple days...
xoxo
lyn