wake me up.
I have been so worked up about school and work and life. I am so weird. I already have in my mind that I will fail, so I get anxious to study. When I do for a little bit all I think about in the back of my head is that I won't remember any of this. I just don't feel smart.I've been putting myself down a whole lot, and comparing myself to others. I somehow fall short of everyone. Flora made me think about it this way: Have I ever failed a class that I tried in? Nope. So why should I think this way? ahh. My mind is warped man. I had a little break down the other night. Russell sat with me and talked to me for hours but I still haven't been able to get my spirits up. I am making a huge effort to study though. I literally sat on my couch after school yesterday for three hours studying just govt. I understood it and I am just crossing my wrinkled little fingers that I will remember it. I am just doing the best I can and If I don't make A's I will be heartbroken.
I need new clothes.
I need new clothes.