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so the thing that i've been working pretty feverishly on and kind of self-destructing over? that was the talk i gave this morning. which went well, after the hitches.
see, for some reason, my computer decided that this file, this ONE file which contained my talk, out of all the other files i have ever sent on this computer, would PRETEND to attach itself to the email i was sending myself, and then not actually attach. so, when i sent my talk to myself, along with a couple other files (which were fine), and looked at the file to make sure it had a little paperclip next to it showing that things had indeed attached, and then biked to school, when i got there there was no talk. NO TALK. I got there fifteen minutes early - not enough time to go back home. i think everything drained out of me right then. i know i was there and standing and trying to figure things out, but i was in that place where you're only not on the verge of tears because you are too stunned.
so.
rebecca and dan k., there for the talk, drove to my house, and rebecca tried to send the talk a couple times . it didn't come through. so she cut-and-pasted it into the text of an email, which DID come through. So the talk started, twenty minutes late. and then it went really well. i read ok, though my voice was a touch shaky at the beginning and i stumbled rather more than usual, because i was still so completely adrenaline-filled from the panic. people asked questions, i answered them, and sounded pretty authoritative. there were not all that many people there, but enough that it wasn't totally bare.
and then i had a nice talk with my adviser, who is just absolutely lovely and was kind and said a bunch of helpful things, as usual.
so things turned out well.
but man, getting there has been pretty awful.
i can't decide whether i want to take the rest of the day off, or just go back to work.
see, for some reason, my computer decided that this file, this ONE file which contained my talk, out of all the other files i have ever sent on this computer, would PRETEND to attach itself to the email i was sending myself, and then not actually attach. so, when i sent my talk to myself, along with a couple other files (which were fine), and looked at the file to make sure it had a little paperclip next to it showing that things had indeed attached, and then biked to school, when i got there there was no talk. NO TALK. I got there fifteen minutes early - not enough time to go back home. i think everything drained out of me right then. i know i was there and standing and trying to figure things out, but i was in that place where you're only not on the verge of tears because you are too stunned.
so.
rebecca and dan k., there for the talk, drove to my house, and rebecca tried to send the talk a couple times . it didn't come through. so she cut-and-pasted it into the text of an email, which DID come through. So the talk started, twenty minutes late. and then it went really well. i read ok, though my voice was a touch shaky at the beginning and i stumbled rather more than usual, because i was still so completely adrenaline-filled from the panic. people asked questions, i answered them, and sounded pretty authoritative. there were not all that many people there, but enough that it wasn't totally bare.
and then i had a nice talk with my adviser, who is just absolutely lovely and was kind and said a bunch of helpful things, as usual.
so things turned out well.
but man, getting there has been pretty awful.
i can't decide whether i want to take the rest of the day off, or just go back to work.