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Somewhat Damaged
So impressed with all you do
Tried so hard to be like you
Flew too high and burnt the wing
Lost my faith in everything
Lick around divine debris
Taste the wealth of hate in me
Shedding skin succumb defeat
This machine is obsolete
Made the choice to go away
Drink the fountain of decay
Tear a hole exquisite red
Fuck the rest and stab it dead
Broken bruised forgotten sore
Too fucked up to care anymore
Poisoned to my rotten core
Too fucked up to care anymore
In the back off the side far away is a place where I hide where I
Stay tried to say tried to ask I needed to all alone by myself where
Were you?
How could I ever think it's funny how everything that
Swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you
Would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
And where were you?
How could I ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
Never change is different now like you said you and me make it
Through didn't quite fell apart
Where the fuck were you
Where were you all the times i cried and had no one to lean on?
where were you when i carved your name into my arm?
where were you when i wanted to kill myself?
where were you when i tried?
where were you when i screamed your name?
where were you when i turned down him for you?
where were you when i wanted to talk to you?
where were you when i gave up on love?
where were you when i gave up hope?
where were you when i had the needle to my arm?
where were you when he tried to hurt me?
where were you when he did?
where were you wheh i died?
because my last dying thoughts are gonna be of you
and how you forgot me. and threw me away. and how
much you said that you cared and didn't. and how
many times you said i was beautiful and wasn't. all
the times you lied to me and told me i was gonna be
okay? where the fuck were yoy? so you don't care? so
i'm not beautiful. i did cut. i cut for you. i cut
because i knew that it's not real. all the things
you ever told me were lies. why did you tell me
any of that? why did you try to hurt me? was that
your intention all along? to hurt me bad enough that
i would finish off the job? i've tried and tried over
and over. with a razor in my hand carving into my
wrist. into my body. where your lips once were i've
sewed away all the secrets.
I'm in a nin mood today. I did something VERY wrong yesterday and I fuckng hatemyself for it. if anyone wants to know i will im you leave a post if you wanna know- but i fucked up really bad.
Minus that my life still is fucked.
woohoo. life must be a nympho for fucking me over so many damn times.
harrison hates me. i hate me. my mom, grandma, grandpa, yadda yadda insert other relatives hate me. anyone else wanna join the list?
I heart my clevage piercing. and my bridge. yay # 25 and 26.
i wanna die. i wanna die now with his smile in my mind. how he told me he wasn't interested in love. how he just wanted to be a kid. how he just wanted
what he couldn't have. i'm running out of places to hide the scars. to hide the cuts. to slice away what i thought could have been 'us' to burn it all away into a fading memory. i want to kill it all away. kill away everything.
ever noticed that it's down and not across?
Somewhat Damaged
So impressed with all you do
Tried so hard to be like you
Flew too high and burnt the wing
Lost my faith in everything
Lick around divine debris
Taste the wealth of hate in me
Shedding skin succumb defeat
This machine is obsolete
Made the choice to go away
Drink the fountain of decay
Tear a hole exquisite red
Fuck the rest and stab it dead
Broken bruised forgotten sore
Too fucked up to care anymore
Poisoned to my rotten core
Too fucked up to care anymore
In the back off the side far away is a place where I hide where I
Stay tried to say tried to ask I needed to all alone by myself where
Were you?
How could I ever think it's funny how everything that
Swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you
Would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
And where were you?
How could I ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
Never change is different now like you said you and me make it
Through didn't quite fell apart
Where the fuck were you
Where were you all the times i cried and had no one to lean on?
where were you when i carved your name into my arm?
where were you when i wanted to kill myself?
where were you when i tried?
where were you when i screamed your name?
where were you when i turned down him for you?
where were you when i wanted to talk to you?
where were you when i gave up on love?
where were you when i gave up hope?
where were you when i had the needle to my arm?
where were you when he tried to hurt me?
where were you when he did?
where were you wheh i died?
because my last dying thoughts are gonna be of you
and how you forgot me. and threw me away. and how
much you said that you cared and didn't. and how
many times you said i was beautiful and wasn't. all
the times you lied to me and told me i was gonna be
okay? where the fuck were yoy? so you don't care? so
i'm not beautiful. i did cut. i cut for you. i cut
because i knew that it's not real. all the things
you ever told me were lies. why did you tell me
any of that? why did you try to hurt me? was that
your intention all along? to hurt me bad enough that
i would finish off the job? i've tried and tried over
and over. with a razor in my hand carving into my
wrist. into my body. where your lips once were i've
sewed away all the secrets.
I'm in a nin mood today. I did something VERY wrong yesterday and I fuckng hatemyself for it. if anyone wants to know i will im you leave a post if you wanna know- but i fucked up really bad.
Minus that my life still is fucked.
woohoo. life must be a nympho for fucking me over so many damn times.
harrison hates me. i hate me. my mom, grandma, grandpa, yadda yadda insert other relatives hate me. anyone else wanna join the list?
I heart my clevage piercing. and my bridge. yay # 25 and 26.
i wanna die. i wanna die now with his smile in my mind. how he told me he wasn't interested in love. how he just wanted to be a kid. how he just wanted
what he couldn't have. i'm running out of places to hide the scars. to hide the cuts. to slice away what i thought could have been 'us' to burn it all away into a fading memory. i want to kill it all away. kill away everything.
ever noticed that it's down and not across?