Rant.
(From: http://www.sanctuslegacy.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=593)
Okay, guys, the next few days are going to be hectic, for me, and I feel like the sooner I can explain why, the better, so none of you are surprised if I'm:
a) Not online as much as usual
b) In a bit of a mood
c) Busy, when I'm online
Firstly, comes Social Informatics. I have a professional presentation due in 48 hours and 38 minutes that I haven't started on at all. For those of you who don't know, I hate that class, it has nothing to do with what I intend to do with my life, and it's just a filler credit to make sure I'm qualified as a full-time student for my loan. My parents know I'm going to get a C-D in that class, and it took a lot of convincing to let them be okay with that, including the condition that their grace is only provisional if I do well in my other classes, including:
Intro to Game Design, where I have to develop 45 animations for the main character, 20 animations for each of three monsters, 10 scrolling backgrounds, an original piece of music, and several mis-matched assets for a side-scrolling shooter, 48 hours after the Social Informatics assignment is due. I'm way ahead on the coding side of things, but developing a game by one's self means doing everything by one's self, and I'm very much used to this team environment, where each of us can pick out our strengths, and let others carry our weaknesses. I am not at all an artist, or at least a fluent one, so these animations are going to take a lot of time to do. Oh, and let's not forget
Intro to Animation, where I and two other students have to have a 30-second short modeled, textured, animated, and post-processed in two weeks, and we have barely met on the topic. I'm responsible for modeling the garage, texturing everything, and will most likely end up doing a hefty portion of the animation: not to mention the music soundtrack.
And, finally... I don't want to throw a pity party for myself, and I know it's gonna sound cliche, but my grandfather has been going in and out of the hospital for the past four years, and he's finally snapping. He's taken four blood replacement operations in three days, he's had a heart attack and been resuscitated, he's stopped eating, he wants to go home, he wants to be alone, and he wants to die. Beyond the emotional stress that's weighing down on my family- (especially my mom, who is essentially the only thing standing between her father and suicide, and who knows that she needs to do what's best for him, and thinks that maybe it's time to just let him go)- a very heavy burden on time, as we've been dancing between our home and the VA hospital downtown, and me watching the kids while they work things out at the hospital...
I don't know. I feel like I need to be printing out medical records or something, because so many things are coming up at one time that it just feels like the whole thing is a terribly cliche nightmare. I don't know what my priorities should be, but I do think that, for at least the next two days, SLO needs to not be my top priority.
I'm not going anywhere- I never do. I'll still be online, I'll still be in the forums, I'll still be talking with you guys. I'll probably find myself doing some work, late at night, to help cool down from the day.
But I need to be helping my family for the next few days, and I desperately need to get this bloody homework done.
*sigh*
I'm not going anywhere. I'll be back.
I trust you guys, and I especially am thankful for Luke, Fleming, Scott, Emily, and Naomi, right now, who I know have the resolve and momentum to carry on for at least a day or two, while I try to catch up.
It's... so nice to have an extra family, every here and there, to watch my back.
Okay, guys, the next few days are going to be hectic, for me, and I feel like the sooner I can explain why, the better, so none of you are surprised if I'm:
a) Not online as much as usual
b) In a bit of a mood
c) Busy, when I'm online
Firstly, comes Social Informatics. I have a professional presentation due in 48 hours and 38 minutes that I haven't started on at all. For those of you who don't know, I hate that class, it has nothing to do with what I intend to do with my life, and it's just a filler credit to make sure I'm qualified as a full-time student for my loan. My parents know I'm going to get a C-D in that class, and it took a lot of convincing to let them be okay with that, including the condition that their grace is only provisional if I do well in my other classes, including:
Intro to Game Design, where I have to develop 45 animations for the main character, 20 animations for each of three monsters, 10 scrolling backgrounds, an original piece of music, and several mis-matched assets for a side-scrolling shooter, 48 hours after the Social Informatics assignment is due. I'm way ahead on the coding side of things, but developing a game by one's self means doing everything by one's self, and I'm very much used to this team environment, where each of us can pick out our strengths, and let others carry our weaknesses. I am not at all an artist, or at least a fluent one, so these animations are going to take a lot of time to do. Oh, and let's not forget
Intro to Animation, where I and two other students have to have a 30-second short modeled, textured, animated, and post-processed in two weeks, and we have barely met on the topic. I'm responsible for modeling the garage, texturing everything, and will most likely end up doing a hefty portion of the animation: not to mention the music soundtrack.
And, finally... I don't want to throw a pity party for myself, and I know it's gonna sound cliche, but my grandfather has been going in and out of the hospital for the past four years, and he's finally snapping. He's taken four blood replacement operations in three days, he's had a heart attack and been resuscitated, he's stopped eating, he wants to go home, he wants to be alone, and he wants to die. Beyond the emotional stress that's weighing down on my family- (especially my mom, who is essentially the only thing standing between her father and suicide, and who knows that she needs to do what's best for him, and thinks that maybe it's time to just let him go)- a very heavy burden on time, as we've been dancing between our home and the VA hospital downtown, and me watching the kids while they work things out at the hospital...
I don't know. I feel like I need to be printing out medical records or something, because so many things are coming up at one time that it just feels like the whole thing is a terribly cliche nightmare. I don't know what my priorities should be, but I do think that, for at least the next two days, SLO needs to not be my top priority.
I'm not going anywhere- I never do. I'll still be online, I'll still be in the forums, I'll still be talking with you guys. I'll probably find myself doing some work, late at night, to help cool down from the day.
But I need to be helping my family for the next few days, and I desperately need to get this bloody homework done.
*sigh*
I'm not going anywhere. I'll be back.
I trust you guys, and I especially am thankful for Luke, Fleming, Scott, Emily, and Naomi, right now, who I know have the resolve and momentum to carry on for at least a day or two, while I try to catch up.
It's... so nice to have an extra family, every here and there, to watch my back.