Feb 11, 2007 03:42
or at least that's what i'm hoping is the reason for my rather bleak state of mind at the moment.
things that are wrong:
1) i'm awake very close to 4 a.m. posting to livejournal for the first time in over a month because i haven't the attention span to focus my creativity toward a more constructive end.
2) i'm still in anderson, S.C. working for my dad with diminishing prospects for moving to a new city with someone i know and finding both happiness and success.
3) i have officially lost meaningful contact with every single friend i've ever made save the one who is hoping and praying and even planning to move overseas.
4) whining about these problems on livejournal will not solve them, but i'm too much of a coward to do anything that will.
5) no one will *actually* read this and solve my problems for me because no one reads livejournal any more. especially not the people who signed me up on this thing and also not the people who haven't heard from or seen a while.
6) this is all it takes to make me feel like this. what does that even mean? i dont know, i just typed something there.
*sigh*
no resolution in real life